I know i am not the smartest, handsome or strong person. I have been through a lot depression this year. From my wife leaving me at the begining of the year to some stuff now. I am starting to speak to my mother and brother who i havent talked to in 14 years. I have been crying since last night. Sometimes i just wanna say fuk it and give in. I dont think world would miss me. Yes i was talking about killing myself. My birthday is coming up dec 21st and christmas the following week but a lot of people get depressed around the holidays. But i dont know. I just wanna apologize for being me.