I sit here in my moms room , looking around and when i hear a door i turn expecting to hear her voice or to see that smile that i remember so clearly , but it's not her. last night was one of the hardest nights of my life, was her Rosary. i never knew mom touched so many souls till last night. every row in the mortuary was full. with her dressed in a soft pink dress it was like she was only sleeping.
Through out the readings and testemonios i expected her to sit up and say something , i do not know why but i did. Everything was so beautiful and perfect, i know she was happy and watching over all of us.
I do not know what to expect today for today is the church mass for her then it is time to place her to rest .. i guess it hasn't totally hit me as of yet that she is gone. God i miss her voice , her holding me , her smile .. i still do not know how i am going to get through this , but take a day at a time and go from there.
I am lucky to have such a loving family in real , and as well the support of freinds and family here in Fubar.. thank You all
Mom,
you will forever be in my heart , i love you so much that i cant breath at times just thinking your not here with me no more. we will see each other again one day , till then i know You are there with my babygirl watching over me ..
Rest In Peace Madre Mia
Te Amo , Te Adoro , Te Extrano.