Ok first blog ever...Well I met the most amazing person I could ever hope to meet. Its funny how we met it all started on the 2nd of April but before I get into that you need a little back ground about the situation. Well as most of my very close friends know I was going threw some hell from October until the new year. I stayed drunk the intire time. Not a day went by that I was not drinking. Well I met an interesting young lady at the new years party that I went to and we hit it off farly well. Long story short we dated until about a week before Valentines day. When my X decides that she was tired of dating trash and wants me back in her life despite all the times I tried to make it work with her and my attemps to get her back she was not ready at those times. Well like a fool I decided to give it one more last chance. My girl at the time was very understanding seeing as she has someone like that in her life someone that she just can't say no to. So me and her end up becoming best friends and where happyer for it. But anyways back to the X and I, we laid down some ground rules and took a go of it. Made threw Valentiens day and what have you spending sometime with eachother. And shortly there after all of a sudden she didn't have time for me anymore. This was shortly before my birthday. So the flags started going up and I hit the road as my birthday present to me seeing as she was not there for it. I started becoming depressed again after putting my self out there over someone I cared about that purly didn't care for me anymore and was no longer the person I fell in love with. I can thank her for a few things that she tought me. She showed me what I really wanted in the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, how to spot a user and a cheater, what love really needs to grow, and she showed me that I deserved better, someone to treat me like the great guy that I am. Well with me being who I am it is kinda tricky for me to get things going as far as meeting girls goes. So I decided fuck it! I'm gonna try some of those internet dating sites and see if I can get lucky. I started this shortly after my birthday. Posted up on a few of them and got no where. Not giving into dispare I decied to start a True account and keep one of the other many sites that I could post on for free. Money was tight at the time and I sure as hell was not going to pay for something that I feel should be a free service. I did this in late March. How ever true seemed to be working for me I was getting views and flirts and e-mails from ppl that shared a lot of compatiablity with me. Trouble was I could not contact them seeing as I was just a free member. I had plans of saving up to get a three month memebership. I guess that fate was with me about two weeks later of wanting to make contact with someone who read my info seeing as I explaned that I was not paying for the servie yet and left alternat ways to get in touch. Some one did reach out and touch me on the 2nd of April. Well I was at work that faithful day doing my internet thing that keeps me entertained. When I recived a friend request from yahoo. Someone wanted to talk to me that I had never heard of! Could this be the one who sent me the E-mail? Sure enough it was, so we started the whole Q: and A:. This went on for a few days up until the 12th. We where talking it up like we had known each other for years when she made the comment that she was board and didn't know what she was going to do this night. Jokingly I said well if your board I will swing by and kick with you seeing as I had the following day off from work and it was a bit of a drive to where she lived. I had no plans of staying the night seeing as I figured she thought that I was just some creepy guy off the internet. Well even in person we hit it off, there was that click there and I felt a bit of a spark. Neigher one of us was looking for a relationship at the time just a new friend and someone to chill with seeing as we both were in the same boat far as our current situation with relationships. I had taken some party favors with me out there being the gentleman that I am I took the ladys choice of refreashments. Well after a few hours of finding out that her and I were big nerds and almost exactly alike things were winding down. I was captivated and excited about my new friend and could not wait to return to see her. So I started to thank her for the evening and say my good byes to her and her friends that I had met. Speaking of them we also hit it off right away and they are now a part of my life as well. But anyways, She TOLD me that I was not leaving because I had popped the top on a few if you know what I mean. Upon showing up with the refeshments I had it in my mind that I was going home so I kept it to a sober level just enough to loosen up a little and relax this being the first time I have ever met someone that I had talked to online. Well we stayed up the rest of the night talking and what have you. I never thought that I would find a person that I connected with on all the levels that I wanted to connect with a person on and yet here I was sitting in her house! I kept telling my self this is too good to be true! Not to start getting feelings for her its way too soon. So I decied to play it coolsville for the time being once I get to know her a bit more and feel things out a bit I will see if it is appropreate for me to express these feelings that just jumped up inside me for her out of no where. The next day rolled around ,my off day, and I was asked if I would do her and her room mate a big favor. It was to take them around looking for parts to the other car that was broken down. Long story short I stayed another night out there and was going to leave for work first thing in the morning. I spent all day at work thinking of her I could not get her out of my head. I just kept telling my self this is to good to be true. I kept wondering if she would call. I kept telling my self that she was not going to call that I was just going to be one of those casual friends you chill with every once in awile. Well low and behold SHE CALLED and asked what I was doing that night. My reply was what should I be doing? And she told me comming out here to see me. The work day came to an end and I was off like a rocket to see her. That night came and went, sunday came and went but I got to kiss her this day a damn good sign! Monday came and I was headed back to work from her houes. Next thing I know its Thursday night again and I'm off to see her again. Well upon reaching her house we kicked it for a bit and I got the idea since I know where she lives its only fair that she knows where I live so I invited her back to my place to stay the night. Well since then we have only spent one day appart and we officaly became a couple the 18th. It has almost been two months now, and what an amazing two months it has been! Every day that passes I find my self more and more in love with her. I found out the only reason she sent me that e-mail that faithful day was that a friend of hers had dared her to. She was checking me out because she found me interesting and very attactive. So her friend stepped up to the plate and was like if you like him all that much just from reading about him and the way he looks why not get to know him a bit and send him an e-mail. Was it fate? Was is shear dumb luck? Or was it something more that we have no controll over? All I know is that she has made me one of the happyest and luckyest men in the world!! And I know that I do the same things she does for me to her and that we both feel the same way about eachother. The only fear that I have now is that I'm going to loose my soul mate and she shares this fear. I have spent 22 years looking for a love this true and now that I have it I'm not going to let it get away. But don't get me wrong if I'm not what makes her happy I will not stand in the way of her happyness because that is what I want for her. If you love something let it go if it comes back then it was ment to be....I just hope I never have to let go. With every thing that I am, and every fiber of my being from the bottom of my heart, I LOVE YOU Tressa Marie Fitzhugh!!!<3<3<3 Now the only thing left I feel would be to get her last name fixed but the time for that has not come.....yet.
