fishkid04's blog: "AH!!! what a weekend"

WEll things have changed a little, im still nmot sure whats fully going on. Were hanging out alot more and the feels are starting to come back. The dad of the child wants NOthing to do with the child. Pisses me off ALOT. SO i have some decisions coming up as ive talked with her on everything. so its step up and act as a farther best i can doing whatever i can or just be friends. I now the friends wont work out at this point where still far to in love to ever keep it just at that. so its kinda in the air at the moment, but im really thinking of the dad one. granted im not rdy money wise or prolly mature wise. i do care and love her. Any one got any dieas?

I love hearing how eveyrone says guys are always the asshole, cause this ones deff the opposite. My x who im still amazing close with just told me news that in a way is good yet hurts. Shes beem kinda i dont wanna say playing but talking wit me and another guy. Well i found out last night after last week where we had talked about possible geting back together saying how she was still truly in love with me. Granted yeah i had fucked up befor but hes done far worse to her in this verall time to keep them from dateing. Well like i said she had talked about herself and i geting together again and moveing in the whole eveyrthing. cause ive known how shes felt and knew she had made a misstake when she admited it and eveyrthing. Well i honestly hadnt lost any feelings for her and im not sure 100% how i feel know, i just found out shes preg qith the other guys child and will be liveing with him. she says shes 99% sure she wont end up even being with him long cause all they do is fight. Shes asking that i dont completely hate her and keep my mind open to her still. Ive decided on that for her once when we first broke up and i had heard this. But idk about it twice. Just a shity weekend cause ive still put just about eveyrthing into atleast this close friendship and i just feel as they comepletely screwed. I know long read lol thanks for reading for those who did!!! any opionions are welcome!