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1. When is the last time you held hands with someone?
last night at my local group's pagan meet-up
2. You wake up as the opposite gender, what's the one thing you do?
go to the bathroom and not have to sit...
3. Have you ever crawled through a window?
many... and have a few scars to prove it!
4. Where is your mom?
Biological one is spread somewhere in ashes under the Golden Gate Bridge...
5. Morning or night person?
Both
6. What was the last movie you watched?
I can't remember... it's been that long ago!
7. Do you have a crush on anyone right now?
Yes - my cat's throat since he is being a P.I.T.A.
8. You have a difficulty doing..?
Anything I don't put my mind to 100%.
9. Things about the opposite sex you notice first.
That they are male... LOL!
10. What do you do when no one is watching?
Pick my nose... or maybe scratch my bum - hahahahaha
11. Ever been in love?
Too many times and it still hurts.
12. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
Going off on tangents and tirades for causes...
13. What is your curfew?
What the hell is a curfew? I am an adult!
14. Would you ever dye your hair red?
Did once, wound up looking like Bozo the Clown and never, ever will do that again.
15. You + alcohol =
One unique experience depending on what is being consumed.
16. What's your worst personality flaw?
Too trusting
17. Which country would you like to visit?
I would love to visit the Netherlands, Norway, Ireland, Scotland, Australia, Russia and Germany again...
18. Do you want a well paying job or a job you enjoy?
Had both - would like that again but would choode enjoy over pay if given a choice.
19. Do you wish to have the same best friends when you're older?
My best friend - my hubby for sure!
20. When were you last on the phone?
Just got off helping with a crisis intervention move to a safehouse.
21. What were the shoes you wore today?
Bare feet
22. Do you like math?
It's a necessary evil
23. What about history?
I married an archaeological historian... gotta like it somewhat!
24. Last 4 people you saw besides family?
Neighbor, mail man, garbage collector and dog walker today
25. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
Yes...
26. Do you have a brother?
Half-brother (dead) but many "spirit" brothers...
27. Are you happy with your life right now?
Do I have a choice? Making the most out of it!
28. Who's your favorite person to talk to online?
I have a few and don't play favorites...
29. Have you ever used photobucket?
Yes
30. Do you like hugs?
Who doesn't
31. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Am married so duh!
32. Do you want to be a doctor?
Would not mind being a holistic doctor.
33. Have you ever fallen asleep with gum in your mouth?
The gums in my mouth that hold my teeth in place but anything else, no.
34. What do you do right before you go to bed?
Thank Gaia for a wonderful day.
35. Right when you get out of bed?
Open my eyes and stumble over the fur babies to trod to pee... ;)
36. Do you love your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Not only love my husband but adore, cherish and am enamoured by him!
37. Would you date a guy with hair longer than yours?
I have and love handlebars! But my hair is getting real long so not many old time male hippies around.
38. Do you want to be famous?
Already am in my own mind... being a mom has done that for me.
39. Do you spend a lot of time contemplating life's unanswerables?
Yes, but only unanswerable till someone finds the answers...
40. Do you do your own laundry?
No, my Maytag does!
41. When was the last time you shaved your legs?
Don't shave - wax!
42. What were you doing this morning at 1am?
Blogging, talking on the phone, playing with the critters and drinking green tea
43. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Filling out this survey, talking on the phone, trying to get transportation for a crisis victim and smoking like a banshee...
44. What are you doing tomorrow?
Waking up (I hope!)
45. Are you mad at anyone right now?
Conservative Republicans, Fundamentalist Christians, Radicals and Osama Bin Laden!
46. Do you know the words to the song on your MySpace profile?
Know all the words to Spiral Dance Songs!
47. Last thing received in mail for you?
A card from a dear friend who is unfortunately in jail for a misfortunate incident.
48. How many different drinks have you had today?
Coffee, tea (herbal and iced), milk, cranberry juice, orange juice, water, frappuchino and Acai Berry/Pomegranate juice.
49. Do you ever leave messages on people's answering machine?
Always... not polite not to even if just saying I'm checking in and say Hi!
50. Any plans for tonight?
K.I.S.S. it - keep it simple and go with the flow up until I pass out and crash.
51. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Sometimes
52. What's the most painful dental procedure you've had?
Impacted wisdom tooth that was in my jawbone removed.
53. What's outside your front door?
A step, a welcome mat, a candle lantern with conch shells around it, a fern, a palm, and on the door a "welcome" feathered creation of my own design.
54. Do you have plans on next Friday night?
Yup - feed, inibriate, massage, huggle, snuggle and screw the heck out of hubby when he gets home after being gone for work all week!
55. Do you like the ocean?
Love it! I live on an island and need to be surrounded by water!
56. What's your favorite season?
Spring - all the renewal, rebirth and growth of life returning...
57. Have you ever been to a concert?
More than I can count on all digits from rock, metal, classical, jazz and alternative
58. Something you are excited about?
LIFE!!!!!
59. Who around you has the most problems?
Not Me!!!!
60. Are any of your great-grandparents still alive?
Never had the pleasure of meeting them in person but do have a family trad BOS that impacted my existence
61. Describe your love life?
A plethora of discovery and roller coaster when sometimes you just have to throw your hands up in the air, and scream wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
62. Where do you keep your change?
Monetary coin is in a 5 gallon jug for a splurge when filled, opinion and ideals in a constant quandry.
63. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Last night at a local pagan gathering
64. What was the weather like on your birthday?
Now that I am in Florida - NOT SNOW!!!!
65. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed?
Closed - I have a dog that breathes like an obsene phone caller and would keep me awake at night. Bad enough the cats love waking me with the vertical blinds on the sliding glass door at dawn that like to covet my head and feet on the bed.
I'm so damn tired.
Tired of fighting
just for the right
to be who I am.
I'm tired of waiting
for the rest of the world
to catch up to the times.
I'm tired of being seen
as a sinner of love.
I'm tired of hiding
my real feelings.
I'm tired of asking
for them to try to understand.
I'm tired of calling out
for the support they have.
I'm tired of being a criminal
for doing what they all do.
I'm tired of being pushed aside
when money for programs is handed out.
I'm tired of being inappropriate
for THEIR children just for being.
I'm tired of being told
I have no right to be a mother.
I'm tired of being thought of
as a freak with no morals.
I'm tired of being accused
of making a choice that was not mine.
I'm tired of being classified
as a bad influence for being me.
I'm tired of being fantasized
to be some sex toy in his wet dreams.
I'm tired of being stereotyped
into having the sex life we all wish for.
I'm tired of being defined
by the gender of my lover
and not by my soul.
I'm tired of being expected
to hide who I am to make them happy.
I'm tired of being scared
by the hate in their fists.
I'm tired of being treated
like a forth class citizen.
I'm tired of being denied
the rights that they take for granted.
I'm tired of crying
and finding that no one cares.
I'm tired of seeing
no one standing up for my rights.
I'm tired of being told
to get help, to change who I am.
I'm tired of being named
wrong just for being who Goddess made me.
I'm tired of being heard
only when I seem like them.
I'm tired of being stopped
from enjoying what should be MY rights.
And I'm so tired of fighting.
But I will.
| What Victoria Means |
 You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night. Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. |
R.I.P. Aileen Elizabeth... 6-25-84 to 10-13-84
Mommy Loves You and knows you are watching over me.
With all that is crammed in my brain, being alone without the support of my best friend, my husband and not even being able to speak to him today has put me in a funk. I know he's ok, cause he is on line and on Fubar and sent me a few quick lines in my shoutbox but I need more. I don't ask for much - just some comfort and a shoulder to cry on. Oh well... enough of my pity party. Life goes on and is for the living. Thanks for letting me express myself.
The symbology and meanings are as follows: East Side, Top to Bottom: Sunrise/Morning, Spring (flower), First Quarter/Waxing Moon South Side, Right to Left: Noon/Day, Summer (green upright leaf), Full Moon... West Side, Bottom to Top: Sunset/Evening, Autumn (copper inverted leaf), Last quarter/Waning Moon North Side, Left to Right: Night, Winter (silver snowflake), New Moon Within the points of the Silver Star, starting in the East and moving clockwise: Red Triangle = Fire, Green Inverted Barred Triangle = Earth, Blue Inverted Triangle = Water, Gray Barred Triangle = Air, Silver Lightning Bolt = Spirit Triple Spiral in the Center: The Universe/The Divine = (Goddess-Feminine/God-Masculine) Maiden/Youth (Silver), Mother/Warrior (Gold), Crone/Sage (Copper) Copper Loops: Cardinal Directions, Connection to the World and Elements of the World, Time and Seasons Silver Star: the 5 Elements of Power, the Form of "Man/Woman" (the Head above, Hands to either side, Feet below, Body in Center) Gold Ring: Connection, Unity of All Gray Background: Neutrality of the Universe and Magic - Do As You Will, Harm None.
Life Is A Prison
Life is a prison,
Oh Goddess let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.
Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.
Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.
Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.
Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.
Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.
Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.
Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.
Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.
So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?
You can't... so why try?
