I do get tired of stupid games I know I was in a relationship for almost 5 years and it didn't end well. I HURT SO BAD BEING AWAY FROM MY SON. I MISS HIM SO MUCH; I LOVE HIM WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I can only hope that I can be forgiven and his mother can be happy. I may not love her any more but I want to make sure I am still part of her life so I can be a part of my son’s life. I don't expect forgives, just compassion. I did what I could to take care of her child and our son. Even gave up my life for them, so she could do what she wanted.I have a beautiful baby boy who means more to me than my own life. He is what keeps me moving forward, trying to find my way back to a life I have now lost. I would do anything to see him again, I miss him so much. My son is my world, and without him I don't have a world to live in. I can forget about the love I had with his mother, but not the love I have for him. I will forget about the hate I have in my heart and humble myself to anyone I can to be with him again. Sorry if this is kind of depressing but I found that it’s better to let it out then to keep it in. I guess spilling my feelings to stranger makes it easier for me to face. Remember Family is the only thing you have in this world cherish them and never forget that they will come to rescue you if you are down. I thank my family everyday now, we may not be close but when it counts we are there for each other. I am not really into anything I only took care of my kids. I worked then came home to my son that is all I needed. I do like to listen to music, and from time to time play a good game online. Most of all just having my Son around was better than any game or any song. Not srue what else to say, when my mind clears from what I am feeling I will update this and hope I will be whole again. I am not looking for too much here but I guess just being able to talk to someone is good for me. I don't think I want to find a relationship from this. Its just too much of a hassel to be with someone. I have what I need in my life and that is a Baby Boy, I will see again one day. Now if your just interested in sex well not too sure about that yet but hell I bet I will need it soon anyways.