AAAAaaall sorts of hungover this morning, I almost went insane trying to think about the Universe and its Creator, or WHAT created it, whether from nature or nurture.
I intensely thought to myself - IF there was a supposed "big bang" - what created that? WHAT created that energy to explode into creation itself? - what made THAT happen?? Also - if there was just "NOTHINGNESS" before hand - what created the nothingness?
Then I almost fucking freaked out trying to comprehend a nothingness, a
'something' - or a 'THING' devoid of ANYTHING, even color, time, light AND darkness...a NOTHING that potentially had NO beginning... Think about it. There is no answer to this...and it almost drove me fucking crazy.
As in - for all we humans know - scientists just made up this bullshit story for people trying to understand the very foundation upon which the UNIVERSE and its creation are built upon. BECAUSE IT CAN NEVER BE TRULY EXPLAINED. Nor can(after)death itself. And this is why I think religion is amusing. I have my own theories... but they are only mine....and I'm just another ant on a massive ant hill, within a world full of ant hills, within a galaxy full of worlds, floating around in a UNIVERSE which came into existence by a massive explosion of energy, time and light.... and before then - what?
WHAT created THE NOTHINGNESS?

that's whats haunting me today. and that's the kind of shit I think about whilst taking a Hangover dump.