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I came to unwind This house of beauty divine Though none will be mine Friendships I do find Leaving my hopes behind Losing dreams in time On my back I do lie Looking to the sky Never wondering why Giving up before I try Not because I'm high I'm just to shy Look in my eyes of blue See the pains I once knew Life unwanted; True Seeking love from few I ask of you To me; You'll be who A lover of sorts Or another cohort Sex I do not sport Love is my castle fort My temper is not short Even when my heart is hurt So keep in mind What I look to find Not just beauty divine Yet someone to call mine As I lay here and unwind Tell me you'll be mine in time...

I walked into her Not on purpose of course An accident that happened to occur Still I have no remorse She moved with such grace Smell of her skin was exotic I imagined her wearing lace It was quite erotic Wondering was she as sweet as she looked Quick daydreams of passions met My whole body shooked Walking away made me fret Conversation was never made I apologized with dignity in strife Wishing numbers were trade That is the spice of life

I owe you a great deal This I know you feel Unable to ever pay back Is only what I lack My heart you steal My soul needing to heal Problems are all I stack Wishing Love wasn't at a lack Snapped back into reality Not one I want to see Knowledge of it remains Bound by chains With you I want to be Falling to my knee I bow with my shames For you I owe changes

Love is for a fool I once thought different Men fight a duel A woman's attention Passion being the fuel nerved with tension A glint of steel Silence heard over echoes Death ending the ordeal Once how love goes Love is for a fool I once thought different She showed me i was a tool Now I know the difference Her heart was quite broke Violence is not love's request Passion is not through gunsmoke Loss of a life's zest Romance now being gone To who should her love be shown Who does her love belong A mystery forever unknown Love is for a fool I once thought different I drowned in love's pool now I know love's over rated difference

You have melted me I just don't understand You have such control Whenever your near Hearts skip a beat Mine comes to a stop The smell of your skin What daydreams are of Your lips touch mine You melt me

I am deeply saddened by the way people are today. I've met people at clubs or online. They all have a few common grounds that are just to shitty to look in on. I'm tired of looking for love... I hate play'n games! When it comes to men: women rate the look, then the cash, then... if it goees that far, sex. Women seem to think that men are about sex and nudity. Yeah, I kan be a perv but, that doesn't mean I don't want something more! Oh, then there are those assholes that look good, have the cash{no I'm not broke}, may be good in bed but, are total assholes! I guess I just don't get people or life for that matter. I can't believe I'm whining like a lil' child! In the end what it is all about... I don't know what it takes to be noticed. To receive Love...

The things I speak In my mind I try to keep Someone will listen Someone will understand What I look for Never knocking at my door No one is there Reality coming clear Someone will hear Someone will care Forever I will look For a heart yet untaken For that someone For my soulmate

I walk amongst the living Never Taking or Giving For attention I ask not Light I do seek alot I appear like a Ghost Darkness I fear most What am I?

I have brought myself here Destined not for misery I found that hiding in fear With a bleak future of history Realizing all that I have become Losing those I Love Happiness when I belong Life feels like O.J.'s glove Mine I have don't fit When it seems warm and snug Everything actually turns to shit Wanting to be Loved and Hugged I wander life like a Lost Soul Drifting from person to person Needing an ease of Heart, ya know Lessons that I knew first-on Remembering actions taken upon me Ones that I carelessly done Made these eyes of Blue see Everyone has pain yet to be shown

Happiness you can find Depths of one's mind Desires of life so True Reminds me of only You Lighting my flamed Dreams Fire of Love Screams Heart longing to be noticed Wandering aimlessly through this Hoping only for recognition My boundless Heart's decision Loving you endlessly My life is yours to take Happiness is all I wish to make