GingerSnaps's blog: "Yes I am going to try this again"

Yep thats the name of this blog and thats about how I feel.I'm all of thee above and thatsallI'm going to say.

in the mumms but they are so boring tonight..I mean what the fuck?I am so sick of the 'should I sleep or stay up? Am I hot or not? I want to try the lounges but am kinda of leery of them I guess I just don'tknow what to expect from them is all.So if anyone reads this and wants to fill me in on what the lounges are like I'd appreciate it.

Today I got a letter from my dad and my stepma.They have decided to adopt my oldest son and give him a stable home in which he will be able to grow up in.My oldest son his name is Cory has been bounced around a few times in the last few years.Nothing that I am proud of but also I had no control over the siyuation either.But I cried when I read the letter enclosed with the court papers.My dad and stepma have unconditional love and I know that my son will be taken care of and get the attention and love he needs as a growing boy.Even though my parents nor my son will ever be on cherrytap I just wanted to give them credit where credit is due.And yes I thanked them with my whole letter as I signed the papers handing my son over to them.Good luck dad and ma...Love your daughter...

is the lack of respect you give us women on here.Now I understand that there are some pretty under handed women on here too.The thing about it is this when you come across a good chick I mean she has looks,brains,sex appeal,her own money,and personality too boot.And what do you do?You say all the right things you know the things she wants to hear.Whether the words are in a sexual manner or just friendly chit chat.And then when we go and message you or even instant message you you guys ignore us as though we never have spoken to each other before.is that your guys definition of friendship? If so I really don't feel sorry for myself but for those of you that do.It's sad and pathetic and to hear you spew out what we already know are lies to begin with.I have said it before and i will say it again...Wouldn't it be easier if you just told us the way it is?

So it's still pretty ealier in the morning and I am bored out of my mind.I have decided to write some more about my female convict attributes(is that the word I want to use there)?Our society sees convicts as dirty poor trailer trash.Well as you can see society isn't always right.I am 39 do I look like trailer trash to you? Hell I never have even lived in a trailer.It is just that some times situations happen....I am the 2nd to the youngest outta of 7 brothers and sisters.The day I was born my aunt told my mom 'Bonnie this one you are going to have to give an extra mile too'.It just so happens she was right.I over excel in anything I do.So I tend to fuck off alot knowimg in the end I will get er done quicker and more effeciently then most.I became a stoner (yeah every body must get stoned).And eventually smoking bud got me to where I was ditching class and just doing stupid juvenile bullshit....thats enough for now more later..

So I bet you are wondering how a pretty girl like me ended up doing time inside of a prison.Well dah I got caught.I got caught up in the street life at an early age because I was one of those kids who knew more then her parents and I didn't need anyone to support me and I was going to make it on my own.I ended up with my daughters father got pregnant and he turned abusive.I wanted out of the relationship so bad but didn't have any where to go so i left him and went to the streets.I was barely 18 at this time..Enough for now

And what the hell am i doing up?Who am I trying to kidd? Shit if I hit the sheets b4 3:30 a.m. it's an early night for me.I wonder why that is?Maybe it has something to do with the time I have done.I couldn't sleep at all at night inside.It wasn't because I was scared to sleep.Because no matter what you may have heard or even choose to believe prisons are not at all what society portrays them to be.Well let me take that back.The womens prisons aren't.That is because we don't do the politics that the men do.But back to why Ginger keeps late hours....Any how now after not sleeping at night being locked up there were certain ways things were done.Breakfast is at a certain time and in the state of California if you want your lunch you gotta go get it at breakfast time.And seeing how I was in a drug program to boot up early and off to program mon-fri.So now thats how I do it up at night sleep 3 hours and up at 7:00 a.m.Trust me i am pretty sick of it myself.I figured since those who read my blogs now know I am a female convict I mite as well tell you a bit about the way I got there and how I dealt with it.And how I feel I am different then 99% of the convicted felons...My world as I see it...peace and later..Ginger

is when you get back from the doctors office and you have noone to talk to about what happened when you have other things going on and noone to haggle back and forth with.When there'a all that money and noone to share it with.Dreams that never get shared when they come true...Just a few random thoughts going thru my head...

I am so bored that it is killing me....Some times I really think that if it wasn't for this site I would go mad.But then this site makes me mad.I get so mad at the way people judge people on here.I for one can not judge anyone.I pretty much raised myself on the streets of San Diego.I have been thru some rough times in my life.I have been to prison and kicked many of habits.I have not always been the nicest or the girl next door type of girl.Just today I insulted a guy for spending to much time in my family album.He has blocked me and now i can't apologize for being a rude and totally out of line bitch.So I guess this is my way of saying I am sorry and to him.I am hoping that someone comes across this and lets him know that I did my best in trying to apologize...Ginger