ZT's blog: "yay poetry of mine"

Oh you're mommy doesn't love you And your daddy doesn't care Your brother won't speak to you And your sister wouldn't dare Your life is just so horrible It's all just deplorable You feel like the world owes you something Well let me tell you something you piece of shit I'm so sick of hearin it Get up and do something about it Quit layin around cryin Wishin that you were dyin You want somebody to help you But you can't even help yourself What you think I'm supposed to help you Just because I have some wealth I didn't make your life the way it is today I didn't make you walk down that path I didn't lead you into the darkness you found You did that to your self! Nobody understands And nobody cares You just want some attention So you shave off all your hair Wear clothes that are disgusting Cut yourself and show the scars Showing everbody how life is just SO HARD You cry fake tears So loud that everyone has to hear make up stories of molestation and rape Sorrow and bitterness around you drapes I'm so sick of hearing your shit Grow up and suck it up Life is a bitch Life is hard Life can deal up some shitty cards But maybe if you learned To take things in stride To face your reality And maybe give yourself a dose of pride It would turn out better

Quit playin me for a fool I'm not some fuckin tool That you can use for fun That you can throw away when you're done I'm a human being muther fucker I've got more feelings than you know what to do with And yet you treat me as some ordinary bitch Fuck you And your play thoughts You can't have my mind You can't have my soul You can't do with me what you want That's fucked up bullshit And it pisses me off Call me hunny Sweetie, baby, love You can take all that above And shove it up your ass Damn get some class If you want me Just want me Don't want everybody else Don't try to pull the wool over my eyes Because baby I am a valued prize One worth winnin Aren't you grown? Shouldn't you have worn out these 'playa' games When you were young Dude I am so over it and I am so done So when you want just me...... Ha right cuz that's gonna happen Only in my wildest dreams Would you ever want just me So go on play your childish games Cuz you just lost out On this high class dame

That's cool Act like I don't know what's goin on That's cool Keep actin like you don't understand the lyrics of my song You're so fake And you always hate Talkin shit behind backs Bitch you need to get slapped Keep runnin your mouth Your existence sucks the life outta me like a fuckin drought I'm tired of bein Involved in your lil mind games But I'm sittin here guessin that you thought I'd stay tame Well here you were wrong As you have been all long Tell me one thing Act another Bitch take that shit back to your mother Kiss my ass You're nothin but trash Why don't you open your mind Notice that there isn't much time For you to be a ungrateful person But each time you open your mouth Your situation worsens And you wonder why people don't like you And you wonder why people don't care It's the site of you they can no longer bear Grow up Shut up Quit puttin your two cents in I really don't think you have a right to speak Until you've done some livin'

You want me to deal With all that become real But baby I just wanna play dumb I wanna just keep my soul numb I'd love to just for once be able To stare blankly at nothing And care about nothing I don't feel like dealin With life's harsh realities I don't feel like caring About what other people are battling When's it my turn not care? When's it my turn to turn a blind eye As one of my closest homies begins to cry When the fuck is it my turn? To feel appreciated When the fuck is it my turn for my soul to stop bein lacerated You want me to deal With all that's become real But right now I just don't want to feel Feel for a world that's so empty So hateful so annoying Sometimes I wish I wouldn't wake up in the morning That I'd take my last breath OH but make you don't cry when you find out I'm gone You didn't care before Don't fuckin care now You want me to face reality? I want mufuckers to stop lyin to me When's it my turn to get the gun And stop everybody's fun When's it my turn? When's it my turn? When the FUCK is it my turn?

Give me a beautiful nightmare One that'll make my breath catch One that I won't dare to test Give me something to scream about Somethin that's not in agony Hold me down Drag my secrets out of me Make me scream in whispers Make me feel like nothin will differ My mind is swimming My voice is brimming I can't take much more Have my heart pounding Like a fist on a door Give me a beautiful nightmare

I wanna play in the dark Where you can't see me And I can't see you Reaching out our arms is all we can do Feeling around in the dark Hoping for the brush of fingertips A lick of the lips Darkness heightens the senses The profoundness of ecstacy Washes over me And I don't even have to see you I can feel you Without your touch I can see you Without opening my eyes I can hear you Without listening for your voice I wanna play in the dark Soft giggles break the silence Once our arms find each other Wrapping the other in our breath, Our smell, our taste I wanna play in the dark Where nothing else matters

I got bored in my night class and start to write and this is what i came up...... This is the chase My fist to your face Are you gonna duck Are you gonna hurry and run Usin the weapon that is my mouth I'll hit your ass from the south Left, right, left, right Skin that was once tight Cracks and tears from ya bone You won't stay down I wish I could choke you Til you fuckin drown You continue to move around Your screams don't make a sound Screams of fuckin agony Images of what you did to me How could you rip my soul from me I'm sick as fuck Constant thoughts of evil and wrong doings And now you're runnin outta luck You should have ran But no you had to be a man As your head slams Up and down My face no longer holds that evil frown

yeah so sometimes i get bored and try my hand at poetry here's two of my latest. Check them out if you'd like and tell me what you think if you wanna as well....much love to all I wish I could sleep But my mind keeps racin' And it's you that I'm chasing All the bullshit that we're facin I stare into the mirror And I wish I could feel nearer, To you, myself, and others But everyone seems to duck and cover I feel like Im beginning to smother In this fire That burns deep inside Yet I continue to hide I continue to smile And continue to dial Your numbers so you know that I'm still alive That I haven't died Yet something has on the inside My heart, my soul, hell I don't know But I could continue to scream I could continue to cry Do you even hear my simplest sigh? ok the next one is a lil longer so bear with me Is this my purpose? Damn why does it make me nervous I battle everything Take on everything But I can't seem to face myself Some one give me some help And I'm struggling Fading and fighting Something much darker Than I've ever let on But I'll keep on keepin on Cuz that's what Emily does A smile, a hug, an "It'll be fine" Aret he words I spit Trust me those are legit But who's gonna pick me up when I fall down Who's going to fix my broken crown Are you just gonna let me drown And I'm struggling Fading and fighting Something much darker Than I've ever let on But I'll keep on keepin on Cuz that's what Emily does I'm reaching through the darkness This fight is the hardest Give me a smile, a hug, an embrace Look ME in the face Tell me I can do it These demons I have ain't shit That I can do this Don't fight my battle But hold me up when I rattle And I'm struggling Fading and fighting Something much darker Than I've ever let on But I'll keep on keepin on Cuz that's what Emily does