i'm so comfused why can't i be that person that every one wants me to be the gurl that does absolutely nuth'n wrong well then because i wouldn't be me i don't kno wut i have done that is so bad that my mom can't even look at me or that she wont even say a word to me well then fuck her i'm out but i cant cuzz i want to be wit my baby and it's already hard enough as it is to see each other so if i move then wut would we do? so this is why i am so confused i can't leave cuzz then i would leave the best thing that has ever happend to me behind but i can't stay cuzz then i don't kno wut i would do when i can't control myself and all the shit i do and besides that if i do leave i won't have anywhere to go anywayz cuzz i did the same thing to the fam i have down where i used to live as i did here i disapointed all of them it's like i can't get close to anyone cuzz all i do is hurt them. every single person that i have been around has sumway been pissed off or juss flat out disapionted in me idk maybe i'm juss not cut out to be here period maybe thats why i'm not who everyone wants me to be it's b/c it juss wasn't ment for me to be here at all EWWWWW!!!!!!!!OMG i hate do'n this to myself i alwayz shut myself down and i can't do anything about it cuzz everybody left me my baby is litterly the only thing that i have left THE ONLY THING and if i leave then i will really have nuth'n at all to look forward to in life i juss don't kno wut to do any more :(
