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created on 10/26/2007  |  http://fubar.com/writing/b146610

i miss you

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Why did you leave Why did you go What did I do I really don't know When you left Tore a whole in my heart So full of questions Why did you depart You played the role Of a father to me Life was so good As life's meant to be I need you And miss you so Why did you leave Why did you go Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

I Hope

A seed floating in the wind with no direction Slowly fading away, it has no protection Lands on the bank but sees no reflection A choice must be made, life's intersection Grow into a tree or fade into the past Soar like an eagle, this spring may be it's last A decision must be made before the dead of night Is it time to lie down and die, or is it time to fight It made the right choice and decided to grow But wasn't its choice to make, of this it did not know Already determined the seed would never be a tree It dreams of a better life but hope is all it will ever be

Silenced

The voice that's been silent all these years thinks deep thoughts but, I thought I destroyed every memory we had. They were lost long ago, but they're all coming back. Your endless nights of pleasure, as my body laid there, motionless and powerless. The endless crying buried deep within me, you never heard, Don't do it again, please, don't do it again, I'll be good, your hurting me You left me with a Demon, ripping, tearing, and striping, my heart apart. The memories keep holding on, they are oh so strong, and for the darkest nights I rest, I pray for a brighter day.

Last kiss

Youv'e got me standing in the cold With no pretection from anything forgetting all that I have been told Just trying to escape this numbing feeling You were the one who made my heart sore From trying so hard to fight the tension What it feels is so much more Then anything of your comprhension You did have your moment when I used to sit Waiting, waiting for you to change your ways I guess like a cangle you one had me lit But I had to extinquish your stifeling blaze Because something has changed, I realize After the way you treated me Your once so brilliant, and now blank eyes Looking in them, let me see I Thought I knew it, but I didnt know it and it took me a lot of consentration Untill I could see that I was a poet And you were giving me false inspiration And you never did like me for me And you could never see anything past my skin In the end it took the blind one to see That you had no real beauty resigning within In your defence, I will admit I amost did really love you But I dont have one regret That one plus one didn't equal two And I dont think you will be effected By the way im ending this Your true self was finally projected And I'm not asking for one last kiss

Conflicted feelings

here are moments when I just want to kiss you then come the times I'd like to choke you. The minutes I dream of loving you, hours of making you scream, In good and bad ways. I sometimes want you to feel the pain that I feel when you are with that other person that will just break your heart and make you cry. But then I remember that seeing you in pain hurts me to the core. Between loving you and hating you is wanting you and needing you Can't see up from down going round and round. Again. Over you. What can i do to stop falling in love with you?

the world fell

She carried herself a long, long ways, Out of direction, she was losing her hope, Falling apart, one piece at a time, No one sees the thunderclouds in her eyes, The raging waters in her voice, Or the pain squinched her pretty face. One long lost night, A thousand miles from home, She fell against a wall, Next to an old man, She was fully in tears, Without a word, he understood her pain. There's medicines and treatments, For sicknesses, cancer, flu, diseases and pain, Why isn't anything out there for, Broken Hearts?" He spoke a while later, She turned to look at the man. "The only cure is the person walking away, Not willing to look back to see what they've left, You keep waiting and waiting, Your realize when their out of sight, It seems the only right thing to do is, Run after them. You run and run and run, But the pain is like lead, You just end up breaking down, With your heart bleeding and broken, Barely beating to say alive, Sitting in your hands. "You try your hardest to put back the pieces, But theres always one piece missing, Always the first love is the hardest, Seventy years ago was the happiest, Time of my life, now ate the age of ninety-nine, My hearts still in pieces. "Keep walking, it will be hard, Just keep your head up, Don't stop dreaming, you will seek through," He finished his last words, And faded away.

Betrayal

An echo fades into the night, an eerie mournful sound. A shooting star disappears from sight, and I crumble to the ground. There is no life within this garden; my sobs are the only sound. I have poisoned the honeyed fountain where your love could be found. Dazed, I stare at the stars above, my grieving howls fill the night! Unintended betrayal of love has hidden you from my sight. I remember how it used to be when we shared our fears and delights. You are a treasured friend to me. How can I make things right? Feeling afraid, cold and lonely, I long to tell you how I feel, but you don’t want to hear me. The pain for you is much too real. Should I back away and build a wall and block away how I feel? Or, should I give you a call? We both need some time to heal. An echo fades into the night as our friendship disappears. How do I know what is right? How can I ease my fears? If I do call you again, would the old wounds reappear?

Flowers

It may not be the same, But some things never change. I feel it and I trust it, I still believe in forever Because that's what my heart knows. Memories are the dew drops on our petals That re-open the buds that have closed. Flowers wilt as seasons change, Though they grow a little more with rain. The sun will shine when in need, And left behind, a precious seed

Release

I'm a free spirit that has been shot down and wronged I pleaded for help a kind gentle mercy My heart felt like it rose up to my throat as you choked the life from me I cried with pain; can barely speak your name Throat swelling burning like a flame This fire this burning I'm yearning for help This is all I have ever felt My life as its slipping Veins running cold My blood as its churning its last My lungs choking for air breathing heavy And nobodies there to hold me tight Or watch this site as I fall to my knees In a last try to be set free abandoning all of me Because there is nothing left for me Why can't I ever just see? As the rain falls it sucks the life from me My one joy to hear and feel the rain and it consumes me And this ending pain; no more shame

What Could You Say?

What could you say, if your daughter ever got raped? or say your son was a mass murderer, or had a life you couldn't escape? What could you say, if your body was so broken, because your father beat you, and called you names the remain unspoken? what could you say if you fell into depression became bulimic or anorexic because of your body's imperfections? what could you say, if tear came to my eyes? would you hold my tightly in your arms? or simply watch me cry what could you say if my words came to an end? Would you help me recover from broken hopes and help me make amends what would you say if I were never here would you continue on with everyday life as I slowly disappear?
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