YOU KNOW I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO A HAPPY WEEK I HAVE BEEN FULL OF HEARTACHE IN THE LAST 9 DAYS FILLED WITH SADNESS AND HEARTACHE OF CHILDREN I WATCHED GROW UP WITH MY SONS AND TONIGHT ANOTHER CHILD DIED AND IT IS RIPPING MY HEART OUT YOU SEE GOD COULD OF TAKEN THIS CHILD BEFORE WHEN HE WAS NEAR DEATH A FEW YEARS AGO BUT HE DIDT HE LET THE CHILD ENDURE MANY SURGERYS AND LOTS OF PAIN PROBALLY MORE THAN I CAN BARE ..WHY?? I ASK MY SELF DID THE CHILD GET HIS HEAD KICKED IN BY A HORSE DRUG AROUND AND LAY LIFELESS ONLT TO MAKE A HUGE RECOVERY AND RETURN TO SCHOOL TO BE WITH HIS CLASSMATES .THEN HE GOT SICK SURELY GOD MADE HIM OUR SPECIAL ANGEL ON EARTH TO GIVE HIS FAMILY A LITTLE MORE TIME TO DEAL WITH HIS LOSS IM NOT SURE I MEAN TONIGHT I WAS TALKING TO MY DADDY AND TOLD HIM ANOTHER ONE OF COREY WHICH IS MY SON FRIEND DIED AND I SAY TO DADDY WHY? AND THE KIDS IN VIRGINIA WHY? HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN I BELIEVE IN GOD AND I KNOW IM NOT TO QUESTION IT BUT BEING SO POWERFUL AND I WONDER WHY DIDNT HE KEEP THE KIDS OUT OF HARMS WAY FROM THE KILLER WHO TOOK THEIR LIVES I MEAN AFTERALL GOD SEES EVERYTHING AND CAN STOP ANYTHING I HAVE GONE THRU THIS JOURNEY BEFORE IN MY LIFE WITH THE LOSS OF MY BROTHER I THOUGHT IF ONLY HE WOULD SAVE HIM I WOULD DIE INSTEAD I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO MAKE SURE MY PARENTS DIDNT HAVE TO ENDURE THAT HEARTACHE AND LAST WEEK I SEEN THAT SAME LIFELESS LOO IN THESE KIDS PARENTS EYES AND I DID MY PARENTS 29 YEARS AGO.DEATH IS SOMETHING WE ALL DO BUT GOD HELP MEI PRAY I DE BEFORE MY SONS BECAUSE IM NOT SO SURE I COULD GET THROUGHT IT AND I ASK MYSELF WHY DID THIS CHILD THIS YOUNG FRIEND OF MY SONS LIVE WHY DIDNT HE DIE BEFORE WHY WAS HE ALLOWED TO LIVE FOR WHAT PURPOSE I KNOW WERE OT TO QUESTIO AS MY DADDY TOLD ME TONIGHT I WAS CRYING I HAD CRIED EALIER FOR THE KIDS AT VIRGINIA AND THEIR FAMILIES BUT THEN THE CALL CAME AND HERE IT WAS RIGHT HERE IN MY HOMETOWN A CHILD WE WATCHED GROW UP AND LAST WEEK TWO KIDS THE SAME FULL OF DREAMS AND AMBITIONS IN LIFE FULL OF LOVE YET THERE TAKEN IF GOD IS SO MERCIFUL THEN WHY IS THERE SO MUCH PAIN IN TE WORLD? TODAY IN MY HOMETOWN WHERE MY PARENTS LIVE A MAN RAPED A 4 YR OLD BOY AND THEN CHOKED HIM TO DEATH IT SICKENS ME TO HEAR SUCH BAD THINGS AND WONDER WHY?? I WOULD KILL HIM AND NOT EVEN THINK TWICE ABOUT IT TO HURT A CHILD LIKE THAT I DONT KNOW THIS WORLD IS BECOMING A SICK PLACE AND ITS SCARY.. ALL WE CAN DO IS KEEP OR FAITH AND I PRAY AND I PRAY YET I REALIZE I AM FORTUNATE I AM STILL BLESSED MY SONS ARE ALIVE ..GOD COULD EASILY TAKE THEMSO I STILL CONTINUE ON THIS JOURNEY OF FAITH BUT HOW DO I EXPLAIN IT TO MY SONS WHE THEY ASK ME MAMA WHY DOES GOD LET BAD THINGS HAPPEN I REPLY TO THEM ITS NOT GOD THAT DOES IT ITS PPL AND THEY SAY TO ME BUT..GOD CAN PREVENT IT RIGHT? HE CAN DO ANYHTING SO WY DO PEOPLE SUFFER THS CHILD IS SAME AGE AS MY SON AND SO LOVED BY ALL..CODY WAS A BRIGHT LIGHT THAT SHINED IN EVERYONE HE MADE US BELIEVE ANTHING WAS POSSIBLE EVEN WHEN HIS FACE WAS CRUSHED IN AND SO MANGLED HE ENDURED THE SURGERY AND CAME T SCHOOL WHILE SOMEONE ON THE OUTSIDE WOULD SHUN AWAY FROM DISFIGURED FACE OUR KIDS EMBRACED HIM AD LOVED HIM FOR THE FRIEND HE ALWAYS WAS ..THIS IS REALLY HARD TO WRITE I HAVE SO MUCH PAIN NOT FOR MYSELF BUT FOR THE KIDS AND THEIR FAMILIES I SIT HERE MY HEAD POUNDING TEARS STREAMING LOL CAN HARDLY TYPE HAD TO RETYPE A FEW TIMES BUT AS I LEARNED WITH MY BROTHERS DEATH . GOD ALWAYS HAS A PURPOSE FOR US ALL ON EARTH WHEN ITS TIME TO GO HE TAKES US HOME IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO REALIZE WHAT MY BROTHERS WAS ON EARTH BUT AFTER 29 YRS I REALIZE HIS PURPOSE WAS TO TEACH US ABOT LOVE ABOUT BEING ABLE TO HELP OTHERS AND I HAVE TO SAY IN MY LIFETIME I HAVE ALWAYS TRIED TO BE THERE FOR PEOPLE EVEN TOTAL STRANGERS WHEN I WORKED AT THE HOSPITAL SOME OF MY PATIENTS WOULD BE ALONE NO VISITORS AND I PROMISED MYSELF THEN I WOULD NEVER ALLOW A PERSON TO TAKE THERE LAST BREATH OF LIFE ALONE I THINK ITS WAS BECAUSE OF THE LOVE OF MY BROTHER THAT MADE ME STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS ANDI HAVE WRAPPED A LITTLE INFANT IN A BLANKET WHILE HE DIED AND THEN PLACED HIM IN THE MOTHERS ARMS FOR HER TO SAY GOODBYE AND I HAVE HELD MANY HANDS AND CRIED WATCHING MY PATIENTS TAKE THEIR LAST BREATH BUT I KNEW THEY NEVER DIED ALONE I KNOW A PRIEST TOLD ME ONCE THAT WORKED WITH OTHER THERESA THAT THE CLOSEST TO GOD WE EVER GET IS HOLDING A DYING CHILD IN OUR ARMS AND I TO MY DYING DAY WILL BELIEVE IT..I CANNOT OFFER MANY WORDS TO PEOPLE WHO LOSE THEIR CHILD EXCEPT TO TELL THEM I BELIEVE WE WILL ALL BE TOGETHER AGAIN IN HEAVEN AND TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS THE PAIN DOESNT GO AWAY BUT IT IS A LITTLE MORE EASIER ..YOU CAN BREATHE ..FOR AL MY FRIENDS WHO HAVE BEEN HERE FOR ME THANKS YOU MAY NOT REALIZE YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS HELP BUT THEY DO AND I KNOW IN MY HEART THAT GOD IS HERE WITH ME ALWAYS JUST SOMETIMES LIKE NOW I NEED A LITTLE EXTRA STRENGTH ..I LOVE OU ALL AND LIKE I SAID PLEASE TLL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM BECAUSE YOU MIGHT WAKE UP LIKE I DID AND MY BROTHER WAS GONE AND I NEVER GOT TO TELL HIM GOODBYE AND HOW MUCH I TRULY LOVED HIM THROUGH ALL OF THIS HE TAUGHT ME THAT ONE THING IN LIFE NEVER FORGET TO SAY I LOVE YOU..SO PLEASE FOR THOSE WHO READ THIS LET MY MISTAKE BE SOMETHING YOU LEARN FROM BEFORE ITS TO LATE..ITS BEEN 29 YEARS SINCE MY BROTHER DIED AND YET IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO FORGIVE OURSELF FOR OUR MISTAKES SO WE CAN MOVE ON WITH OUR LIFE AND FOR ME IT WASNT EASY..I LOVE YOU ALL AND GOD BLESS EACH OF YOU AD YOUR LOVED ONES..RITA
