Skitty's blog: "WHY?"

I CANT ADD MORE PICS OUT OF ROOM SO ILL PUT HERE LEAVE A COMMENT AND RATE PLEZ ALSO SOME OLD ONES TO COMPARE AND TELL ME IF U LIKE THE BLONDE OR THE BRUNETTE! THE FIRST 5 R NEW WITH BLONDE HAIR!

I OFTEN WRITE POEMS DEPENDING ON MOODS IM IN, IM GONNA POST A FEW HOPE U LIKE, I ACTUALLY GOT ONE OF MY POEMS PUBLISH IN A POEM BOOK LAST YR IN NOV 06 IM NOT EXTREMELY GOOD BUT THEY DO COME FROM THE HEART !! HERE IT IS SHARE UR IMPUT IF UD LIKE MUAHHH "WANTING TO FIND" MEN WILL COME AND MEN WILL GO I WONDER IF I'LL EVER FIND THE ONE TO MAKE ME WHOLE I HAVE LOVED AND I HAVE BEEN HURT BUT BELIEVE ME THE NEXT TIME I WILL BE ALERT SO MANY TIMES MY HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN WHEN WILL A MAN GIVE ME HIS HEART AS HIS TOKEN WHEN I GIVE MY HEART TO A MAN, HE WILL ALWAYS KNOW WHERE I STAND I JUST WANT SOMEONE WHO I CAN GIVE MY HEART TO WHO WILL GIVE ME HIS BACK AND LOVE ME TRUE I WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL MAKE ME HIS EVERYTHING NOT A ONE NIGHT STAND NOT JUST A FLING I WANT SOMEONE TO WALK THAT EVERLASTING MILE SOMEONE TO DO HIS BEST TO ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE ALL I ASK IS FOR LOVE,TRUST AND ATTENTION WHO WILL LOVE ME FOR ME AND MAKING ME HAPPY IS HIS INTENSION BLOCK OUT THE WORLD LIKE NO ONES AROUND SIT AND DAZE AT ONE ANOTHER WITH OUT A SOUND FEEL OUR HEARTS BEAT AGAINST ONE ANOTHER FEELING THE LOVE LIKE NO OTHER LONGING TO FIND THAT SOMEONE SPECIAL TO LOVE WANTING TO THANK THE HEAVENS ABOVE

HERES ANOTHER ONE I WROTE LAST MONTH GEE CAN U TELL I WAS SAD LOL HOPE U LIKE! "The Emptiness Inside" Im tired of crying, Im tired of lying Tired of feeling so empty inside Makes me want to run and hide Theres got to be more to life than this I often sit and wonder what i have Missed Sometimes i feel like Im losing my mind To be happy is so what I long to find Why does everything always happen to me I guess being sad and lonely was what i was meant to be I'm so tired of being lonely and sad I'm tired of being hurt it makes me so mad I often lay at night Wanting just to give up on this fight All i ask out of life is to be happy and free just want to be able to be just me Tired of putting that fake smile upon my face Feels like im running a never ending race All i want to be is happy and smile But i feel like ive walked that last mile I just want my heart to be whole For that i would give my soul So tired of crying So tired of lying Makes my heart feel like its dying If everyone could truely see What this saddness and emptiness is doing to me I just think i cant take anymore Everyone will know when i walk out that door When i disappear into the night All because i gave up the fight!

ANOTHER POEM I WROTE! "I CANT TAKE ANYMORE" WRITTEN 6-4-07 THE WAY I FEEL INSIDE MAKES ME WANT TO RUN AND HIDE I HURT SO BAD NO ONE CAN TRULY SEE WHAT THE HURT IS DOING TO ME WHY DOES LIFE HAVE TO HURT SO BAD WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE SO SAD EVERY DAY MY HEART BREAKS MORE AND MORE I DONT KNOW IF I CAN TAKE THIS ANYMORE IM TIRED OF BEING SAD,IM TIRED OF CRYING SOME TIMES I JUST WANT TO GIVE UP TRYING I DONT ASK TO MUCH OUT OF LIFE THIS HURT I HAVE INSIDE CUTS LIKE A KNIFE I DONT KNOW WHY I ALWAYS GET TREATED THIS WAY IM LOSING MY MIND MORE AND MORE DAY BY DAY I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO OPEN THIER EYES AND SEE WHAT I HAVE TO OFFER THEM AND WHAT I CAN BE JUST TIRED OF CRYING,TIRED OF BEING SAD TIRED OF HURTING, TIRED OF BEING MAD MAYBE MY LIFE WAS MEANT TO BE THIS WAY I HOPE THE HURT AND THE EMPTINESS GOES AWAY I PRAY FOR THE DAY I CAN BE FIRST ON SOMEONES LIST INSTEAD OF BEING THE LAST ONE TO BE MISSED ALL I KNOW IS I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE ALL I ASK IS TO BE ADORED

I KNOW IM PRETTY SAPPY AND LAME BUT I LIKE TO WRITE POEMS AND IF U THINK IM SAPPY DONT READ IT LOL HOPE U THINK ITS OK ALL! I GUESS ONE OF THEM DAYS LOL! "ALL I WANT" i dont know if i was meant to be happy, or love was meant to be for me i wish someone could make me truly see dont know what to believe anymore dont want my heart to sore sometimes i fall to fast all i want is something that will last to fall in love with that special man someone to walk with hand and hand sometimes i let them walls down then when i do i end up with a frown i give my heart and trust so easily then always end up in misery why do i let this happen to me can anyone understand and truly see just want to be loved and to love them back not just to always be used to get in the sack! just looking for that someone special to love someone i can thank the heavens for up above i hate these walls i put up around me from being hurt so much,happy is all i wanna be i wish i can find someone to truly understand im not just looking for a one night stand im looking for that someone special to give my heart to someone to love me no matter what we been through someone whos not afraid to show his true self someone whos heart isnt put up on a shelf someone to put me on top of his list this is my one true wish someone to be my world my everything someone who will make my heart sing true love is so hard to find and sometimes theres people that are just blind they dont realize if you find it hold on to it cause you might not find it again so let your heart commit just hold on to them and dont let them go because they might be that special someone you never know!

"Someone who Understands Me" 9-25 Why cant i find that someone who understands me someone who will listen and truly see See why these walls are up and im afraid to love and trust to see that my heart has been broken and im full of discust When i open my heart and let them in then thats when it seems the heartaches begin I try to show how i am rather unique words from the heart i always do speak Everytime i finally let those walls down i always end up crying almost enough to drown All i ask is for someone who is true someone who means it when they say" I Love You" The one who wakes up thinking about me with a smile upon his face the one when he looks at me and i make his heart race When i look in his eyes i can see his soul and when we are together he makes me feel whole To see him smile for ever more someone i can love and forever adore Someone who will put my happiness ahead of his own the one who will love me forever so i dont feel alone Someone i can love more and more every day someone i can make happy in every way I have so much love to give to that guy who is true and who will understand the things that i been through Who will love me with all of his might someone who will make my future look bright The one who i will forever love the one i will thank the heavens above If i do find this love i will hold him tight and his love i will cherish with all of my might!!!!

"In Time" my loving touch my warm embrace my fingers tips run along you face ur soft lips ur hand around my hips ur beating heart ull fall in love from the start the sparkle in ur eyes that look that keeps u mesmerized ur beating heart upon my chest my love will always be the best u will never meet another like me this in time u will truly see, ive got a big heart and so much love to give, this u will feel as long as i live i know u will fall in love then u will thank the heavens up above everyday i will make u smile, together we will walk that everlasting mile all i ask for is patience and understanding, this love i have to give i promise will be outstanding if you see my point of view this love u will feel will be one u never knew give me the chance to be your everything give me the chance to make your heart sing i am very unique in time u will see every day i will let u know what u mean to me if given this chance to make u mine and only mine together forever our love will shine! look deep down into my heart and let me in yours let me be that one he forever adores!

" Looking For My Everything" Looking for my everything is he out there ive searched far and ive searched near Broke some hearts and mine has been broke some men just think love is a joke When i give my heart i give it all trust him totally to catch me when i fall Want that man who will make me feel whole want a man to love me mind,body and soul Want that man to make me his everything the one who can make my heart sing When he looks at me does he have that sparkle in his eyes when we touch his heart beats and he get butterflies Want to find that one who always has me on his mind that true love that i have longed to find The one who picks a flower just because the one who over looks my flaws The one who loves me just for me in my arms he longs to be To feel his gentle touch against my skin to feel the love we have for one another within To feel his kiss upon my lips to have his arms around my hips To feel our hearts beat as one kissing him day after day under the sun To walk with him that everlasting mile to make him everyday have a smile To love him and make him happy everyday to be there for each other in every way Someone that makes you heart flutter someone that will love you like no other Just to find that heart thats true just to hear that special someone say "i love you"

Ok i wonder is it to much to as when u think u find someone u really care about and have deep feelings for them to be faithful to u and not have to be flirty with others etc i mean if u really care for someone and want to make it work and u think this may be the one is it really worth it to lose it for a simple flirt or a cyber or anything like that? someone make me understand, if u find that special someone that makes ur heart skip a beat and is on ur mind all the time why would someone risk that?i mean yes have friends talk etc but know when to draw the line!and have respect for the one ur trying to commit to! or am i wrong? i mean theres flirty but then theres down right flirty hard 2 explain! i dont know maybe its just me but if i have a connection with someone abd my heart does skip a beat and hes all i think about i would want to cherish that and keep it and try everything to make it happen,but thats just me! thanks had to vent!

OK IF UR GONNA TALK TO ME FINE I ALWAYS LIKE TO EXCEPT NEW FRIENDS AND LOVE TO CHAT AND MOST OF U THAT R ON MY FRIENDS LIST ARE GREAT AND WE ALL JOKE ECT. BUT DONT SHOUT AT ME THINKING THAT BEING PERVERTED IS WHAT I WANNA HEAR EVERYTIME U SHOUT ME LIKE :I WANT TO DO U OR NICE BOOBS OR ALWAYS SOMETHIN PERVETED! IF U WANT TO HAVE A CONVERSATION THEN FINE BUT OMG IM NOT ALL ABOUT CYBERING IM LOOKING FOR MORE OR AT LEAST FRIENDS! THERE R PPL ON MY LIST WHO R SWEET THAT SHOUT ME TO SEE HOW IM DOING, OR JUST HAVE A CONVO BUT DONT SHOUT ME AND RIGHT OFF THE BAT SAY NICE TITS OR SOME PERVETED THING ITS FUKKIN GETTING OLD ALREADY! U PERVERTED ONES WHO DO THIS RUIN IT FOR ALL THE GOOD PPL THAT R ON HERE AND U PLAYERS MAKE IT HARD FOR THE GOOD GUYS TO PROGRESS ANYTHING FURTHER CAUSE WOMEN HAVE PROBLEMS TRUSTING THE GOOD ONES CAUSE WE DID TRUST AT ONE TIME AND GOT PLAYED! ANYWAY WE ALL HAVE OUR FUN FLIRT WHATEVER BUT OMG DONT START A CONVO LIKE THAT AND DONT ALWAYS THINK THATS WHAT A GIRL WANTS IS TO CYBER I ACTUALLY HAD TO BLOCK MY PRIVATE PICS CAUSE OF THE PERVERT! I JUST WANT THAT SOMEONE SPECIAL THAT WANTS ME AND ONLY ME AND ISNT ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT NEKKED PICS OR SOMEONE BEING A PLAYER! SORRY HAD TO VENT!