Petal's blog: "Poetry"

I never did find the reason, the reason I couldn’t love you, love you with all of my heart share everything I was, or would be. I always looked the other way when you came too close. Scared of things I didn’t know. Afraid of the way things might turn out. I never let fate take its course, I always fought against it. Not wanting to embrace reality for what it was, I let you go. Those times spent wondering, wondering how to get away, I should have listened to every word you said. I should have stayed longer, longer in your arms, longer in your presence, and forever in your warmth. I should have walked with you on those chilly, starry nights. Held your hand and shared dreams when you showed the courage to ask. Now, sitting here alone, still searching for a reason, the only way I can have you is in my memories. Struggling through the flow of tears, I realize with my entire soul and all the feelings I subdued so well, I should have let you love me.