WELL THIS IS MY FIRST BLOG IN CT AND ITS MOST LIKELY A PRETTY DUMB ONE BUT WHO CARES IF YOU DON'T LIKE DON'T READ IT WITCH I KNOW MOST WON'T ANYHOW.... WELL I PUT MY HEART OUT THERE AGAIN FOR A VERY SPECIAL GUY I FELL FOR ALL HIS WORDS TELLING ME HOW HE KNEW I WAS THE ONE AND HOW HE WOULD WAIT AS LONG AS IT TOOK TO GET MY LIFE IN ORDER SO WE COULD BE TOGEATHER THINGS WERE GREAT (I THOUGHT) WELL HE WENT AWAY FOR A FEW DAYS PROMISED HES CALL OR CATCH ME ON HERE EVERYDAY (HUMM MAYBE HEARD FROM HIM TWICE) I WROTE TO HIM I CALLED HIM AND LEFT MESSAGES EVERYDAY BUT HE NEVER RETURNED ANYTHING WELL HE DID TWICE SAYING IT WAS ALL GOING TO BE OK TO JUST HOLD ON TILL HE GOT HOME NOT TO GIVE UP ON HIM SO LIKE A FOOL I SAT HERE AND THOUGHT ABOUT NOTHING BUT HIM DAY AND NIGHT AND FELL FOR HIM MORE AND MORE WELL HES BACK NOW AND I HAVE STILL NOT HEARD FROM HIM I GEUSS IT WAS ALL A DREAM AND I JUST WOKE UP I MEAN COME ON IF YOU WANTED TO BE WITH SOMEONE AS BAD AS HE SAID HE WANTED TO BE WITH ME WOULDN'T YOU GET AHOLD OF HER ASAP TO LET HER KNOW YOU WERE HOME AND EVERYTHING WAS OK ? WELL MAYBE HE JUST FORGOT ABOUT ME (LOOKING IN THE MIRROR THATS UNDERSTANDABLE) BUT THIS TIME THE HURT IN MY HEART IS REALLY BAD CAUSE I BELEAVED ALL OF IT I REALLY DID IN THE BEGINNING I TOLD MYSELF TO GO SLOW AND LET MY HEAD CATCH UP WITH MY HEART BUT HES ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT DAY AND NIGHT AND I LET MY HEART WIN NOW ITS CRUSHED I HAD A FEW PEOPLE TRY AND TELL ME WHAT WAS UP WHILE HE WAS GONE BUT I TOLD HIM AND HE SAID OHHH NOOOO IT WASN'T TRUE DANG I HATE THIS HURT AND YES STUPID ME IS STILL SITTING HERE WAITING TO HEAR FROM HIM WHICH I KNOW AINT GOING TO HAPPEN BUT ITS MY DREAM AND I WANT TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AND HAVE IT AGAIN HE IS SO AWSOME AND EASY TO FALL IN LOVE WITH NOW I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO WELL THAT ENOUGH FOR THIS STUPID BLOG LATER YOU ALL......... XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
