ponderman's blog: "why they call me "ponder""

efore you read any further.... read this... and if you don't like 1/3 then you wont like me. If you dont like me and I think you are my friend... kindly send me an email telling me to unfriend you. Not trying to be mean I just don't want ppl getting the wrong idea about me... Can you deal with me? Here is some insight and background on me: # I don't rate my popularity and the size of my buddy list. I don't "friend" people that just want to add me. If I dont know you don't ask to be my "friend". You'll see this over and over as u read along to make sure that it is well recieved. # I am not a pervert but do like to talk about sex especially since I am in Iraq. If you don't .... sorry. # I have posted nude pics on a voyeur site because it was a thrill. I love parts of my body. I am proud that I did it. # I flirt cause it makes me feel good when women respond to it. # I used to blend into social groups to make friends. After so long I forgot who I was. # I love to read just hate opening up books. # I went to school to be a chef, a teacher, electrician, and computer programmer. Still do not know what I want to be when I grow up. # I don't like fake ppl that pretend to be nice. OR lie about who they REALLY are. # I talk a lot of shit about sex but hardly ever do it. Talking about it is more of a turn on. Getting ruins it :P. # Bi women are a turn on and I think at lest 80% of women want to or have done it. I just managed to date (and marry) the 20% that are not. WTF? # I was a geek in middle school, came out of my nerd shell during my freshman year. # I am a sweet talker and love that about me. # I don't bullshit ppl, if you don't like me don't talk to me. This doesnt mean I wont try to be nice. # I hate ppl who led me on i.e. see fake ppl. # I am a wrestling guru and read behind the scenes stuff. # Lost my virginity when I was in 7th grade. It was the girls idea, and a one night stand. # Girl have two infatuations with me, and one is my eyes can you guess the other? ;P. # I have no tattoos and do not want any. # I don't like dominative women. # I was the invisible kid in my family, that is why I crave positive attention. # In high school most women would rather be friends and fuck me then date me. However at the time that was not a bad thing. # Worst sex I ever had was a 3-sum. I am not man enough for 2 st8 women. # I get teary eyed during sad movies, and scared during scary ones. # I get in kicks where I am over confident. # I am a tease sexually (I always gave the sex but i liked to see the heat before I did). Now it's look but don't touch. # I have a addiction to chatting. # I have a highly addictive nature so I have to watch what I do. # I am a creative writer and even though I am bad at English most teachers loved what I wrote. # Spell check doesn't know what the hell I am spelling half the time. # VERY Impatient and hasty (look at the Dec below) # Knick name when I was a kid was "motor mouth" because I talked REALLY fast and ALOT, Bones, and D.T. Now its Ponder cause I love the word. # On women physically I look at (in order) hair, eyes, breasts (B and C are my favs), size (shape), butt, and legs. # some people when I was in college thought I was gay... that's okay their girlfriends didn't. # I am NOT gay or bi, and I don't care for m/m public affection. I used to be homophobic tell one of my middle school friends game out of the closet in H.S. He was cool still cept he acted and talked like a flamer... yuck. # Girls called me Don Juan in college. # I used to get girl to mess around with me cause I gave GREAT messages..... couple of them called me out on "love Lines" on then 96 sto. One is on my buddy list here I think. # If I cant be me then I dont want to talk to you at all. # Be who you say you are.... no reason to hide anything from me cause I would like u more as u. # Every person on my buddy list will say the same thing if u "compared notes." Try it. # I love getting pics... u'll get mad at me for asking all the time.... get over it cause i'll keep asking

My Ponders 1. Knowing how to talk well get u places, knowing how to flirt gets you places.......and laid. 2. Are you looking for mr/mrs right? Stop it! It's like watching and waiting for water to boil, just when you see a bubble it stops or blows up in your face. 3. Life may suck but with out it you would be dead, and that doesn't sound like much either, does it? 4. In all situations, hope for the best, however never forget that the worse could happen, but don't drive for the worse unconsciously, cause that's what you'll get. 5. It's only work if you don't want to be going it or you want to be somewhere else. 6. Life is only cruel....if you look at it that way 7. Don't drown yourself with the past and keep your head up, on your way into the future 8. Peple say,"Be yourself" and for some people that is the hardest thing to do cause they don't know who that person is. 9. Why is it people say that looks don't matter? Could you marry a person that your not attracted to? 10. Can a "player" ever fall in love? 11. You can dream about what you want as long as you appreciate what you already have. 12. Why is it if your exiting out or off something that it's that it's called "exiting" when in all reality you entering on to something else? 13. Try to never lose but know when the battle is over< 14. Is it the end or a new begenning? 15. If you were to look at one of your problems, like it is not your problem, can you figure it out? 16. If we were all to look alike, this world would be a dull place 17. Is there such a thang as "love at first sight"? Or is it just lust at first sight? 18. Do all poems rhyme? 19. Why do they say when someone is lying... they say bull shit? Was long ago someone walking caught his friend lying steps in bull crap and said "bull shit" 20. "Life is like that sometimes"..... this is for the late great Ms. Brook Baker that was killed last year here, she was my friend and this was her ponder at the end of all her E-mailes, she is missed and loved, I didn't agree with that ponder, and I still wish that I didn't :-(