The pictures are clear, it amazes me after 11 years how fast I was replaced. How happy she looks, how happy the kids are, all the things I did are what he's doing now. My flowers wither and die, his get pictures and praised by her friends. The same places I took her, the same things I did for the kids, forgotten about. My former friends stand in my driveway with her new man, bullshitting like I was never there. Sitting on my couches, making my children smile. And all her fiends praise her, praise him, and forget what I did, and how hard I tried, just to be used and thrown away. Now Im the pariah, the stain, the nothing. And she floats untouchable by anything. Her resilience amazing. Never judged. Never once held accountable. All these things that make me crazy, sad, angry, all these reasons to easily hate her, and I cant. Resent, yes, hate, no. Why do I still love her?