Okay so I have been thinking lately ( I know a bad thing right) I have found out that I really don't want to work. I rather stay at home clean house and look after kids. I mean I'm only 22 and i am ready to have kids, be the stay at home mom good wife type deal. Here is the kicker tho I am seeing some one and its really not working out right now he lives to fare away and when i do talk to him, the chances i do get, he don't even say the 3 little words that make my heart tie up in knots and i get butterfly's in my stomach. It seems we are getting further and further apart as the days go on. Mind u this is the first guy i have not ran from that has told me he wants to marry me, have kids with me and grow so old together we piss off people at the old folks home (i know kinda dumb but it meant a lot to me)lol. Also he is the first guy that i have stayed almost a full year with.Am i just asking to much or is it time to part ways. I really just don't know anymore. ARG grr my mind i'm so lost in it i just don't have a clue anymore.
