3384458's blog: "Whispers In The Wind"

LOVE is a 4 letter word....

So is HURT....

So is HATE....

So does LOVE + HURT = HATE?

Or HURT + HATE = LOVE?

Some food for thought...

G'Night

When I'm Hurting
by: Mike Blair

It's easier for you to walk away
than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away
than it is for you to see the depth of my despair
It's easier for you to look through me,
than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself,
than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy,
than it is for you to feel my pain.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
It's hard for me to smile......

When I am hurting.

It's easier for me to cry,
than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone,
than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away,
than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself,
than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die,
than it is for me to face life's challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
It's hard for me to smile......

When I am hurting.

If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.

When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.
When I am hurting.

I'll walk alone..

"I'll Never Understand"
Original Song By: Mike Blair

*This is my newest song I wrote with my thoughts on my previous relationship that ended with questions in my mind.*

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I thought we'd last forever
The things we did together
The love that we had
The times of ups & downs
My faith in love is gone

[CHORUS]
It's a god-damn shame
Whatcha you're doing to me
Never knew what you were thinking
Never thought that I cared
In you're crazy fucked-up mind
I'll always question why?

(Pause)

I'll just never understand

You say that you still love me
But choose to be with him
You tell me he's not the man I am
And not as good a lover
But in your mixed up mind
There can never be another

[CHORUS]
It's a god-damn shame
Whatcha you're doing to me
Never knew what you were thinking
Never thought that I cared
In you're crazy fucked-up mind
I'll always question why?

(Pause)

I'll just never understand

You say he treated you badly
And that he never cared
When we were together
I was always fair
I put you first every time
And never thought of me
But you prefer to be with him
It's a shame you cannot see
Beyond his looks
he's an evil beast

[CHORUS]
It's a god-damn shame
Whatcha you're doing to me
Never knew what you were thinking
Never thought that I cared
In you're crazy fucked-up mind
I'll always question why?

(Pause)

I'll just never understand

Take a good look at agony
Force fed pass down
Time release
I'm inspired to find the liar
Black list X on the back
Of a soulfull man
I've got way's you understand
Look left, look right, but I'm
Behind you
I never noticed, until I focused
On everything you did, you said,
You lit the fuse inside my head

[Chorus]
Thank you for reminding me
Of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did
You think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear
Are there under my skin
Where you've always been
Thank you for reminding me,
To sin with a grin

Hangman
Standing on a twisted 2x4
Built your house, but forgot
To lock the door
I'm inside with two black eyes
I have not one shred of sympathy
I have no use for apologies
I'm inspired to find the liar
I never noticed, until I focused
On everything you did, you said,
You lit the fuse inside my head

[Chorus]
Thank you for reminding me
Of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did
You think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear
Are there under my skin
Where you've always been
Thank you for reminding me,
To sin with a grin

Thank you for reminding me
Of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did
You think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear
Are there under my skin
Where you've always been
Thank you for reminding me -

Of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did
You think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear
Are there under my skin
Where you've always been
Thank you for reminding me,
To sin with a grin

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that wen't wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

[Chorus]
It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew

How can something that's not there hurt so bad?

The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.

I need someone to be there for me, I need someone to talk to me, I need someone to spend time with me. Instead, I'm getting more depressed, I only really have myself.

It hurts so much to love you the way I do, and look at you and realize how much you don't care.

My world is not happy, my happy place has locked me out, and all I want to do, is get away. Running and screaming and crying, as the tears from the sky drench me, with the reality of my decision. And the knowing, that things with never be the same.