Evil Wicked the Alaskan Hottie's blog: "my son"

Well everyone keeps wondering where I have been..I have been in and out of the hospital with my son..Not just for his broken hand that he just had surgery ,but for some issues with his chest. I am unsure what is causing with problem and as much as we have been in the fucking hospital you would think that they could find out what it is .  It started this summer when he went to basketball camp in Denver he texted me to let me know he was sick or something at least that is what he was told..maybe he had broncitis. Well being I was still in alaska its hard for me to deicided so wait till he gets back.  When he gets back he seems fine. He tells me his chest was hurting him there and he was coughing alot and the coaches said was probably cold or something. Well since he has been back I have spent alot of time in the E.R. with him because he keeps getting these attacks that are just like heart attacks. The hospital says it has nothing to do with his heart and the heart doctor didnt really do any more tests saying that the other ones that all the other docs did was fine. Yet they don't really know what it is just say its not life threatening..WTF..this last time a few days ago was really scary. He kept passing out and not breathing and said he couldnt feel his body and thought he was gonna die. How do you keep calm and try to keep ypur 16 year old calm when your scared and know he is too..Thats all i could do was try to keep it together without killin the doctors and nurses that say he is fine. While watching him and knowing he is scared. Specially when he looks at me and tells me he feels like he is dying and then hugs me and tells me he loves me..which he never does. I am sooo  stressed out and in a daze anymore. All I can hope for is a day without an incindent and another trip to the E.R.  So please understand that I am not ignoring you or anything. I have just been preoccupied and stressed out..I love you all..really do ..thanks for the love in return..xoxoxo

And please forgive the engish and typing..:)