GG YOUR STATUS:(only moved things because they hurt 2
bady)<<< SO IM NOT YOUR #1 FUBAR FRIEND..BOO FU..
HOO..BIG DEAL!!!I HADN'T EVEN NOTICED TILL U POINTED
THAT OUT WHATEVER.WELL THATS A START..MAYBE YOU
UNDERSTAND I CAN'T BE #1 FRIEND ITS TOO MUCH
RESPONSIBILITY..WAKE UP !!!! GG...YOU GOT THAT SIGN OR
AT LEAST YOU SAID YOU DID ON THE PHONE YESTERDAY
MUST IT REALLY BE SO COMPLICATED..?????!! I KNOW FOR
3 YEARS I MADE YOU MY GOD..I KNOW YOU LIKED IT
BETTER THAT WAY...BUT FOR ME.. IT NEARLY KILLED ME!!SO
WHO LOVES WHO?? HUH?I DON'T WANT TO BE
ANYONES GOD.I ONLY WANNA GET THE WORD OUT
THAT HE HEARS US!! I MEAN IF HE HEARD ME..SAVED ME
AND YOU HATE ME OR WHATEVER CAUSE I CHOOSE TO
FOLLOW HIM..WELL I AM SOO NOT SORRY..THEN CAUSE
THATS YOUR EGO IGNORING THE TRUTH MAYBE.. BUT I'M
NOT LETTING YOU OR ANYONE ELSE EXTINGUISH THIS
FIRE GOD HAS PLACED IN MY HEART EVER AGAIN!! NO
YOU WEREN'T THE ONE TO TRULY SAVE ME..I AM SORRY
THAT YOUR EGO IS FUCKIN WITH YOUR HEAD BLOCKING
YOUR HEART ...CAUSE LIKE YOU SAID ONE WE HAD A
FIGHT BY THE NEXT MORNING I WAS SINGING TO
JESUS..SO YEAH.. IT SURELY WASNT YOU THAT WAS
HOLDING ME BACK FROM A CLIFF LEADING INTO "THOSE
ROCKS OF DESPAIR AND SHATTERED DREAMS"...WHEN
YOU SAY ...WELL THEN LET GOD PAY THE RENT!?..HE'S
ALWAYS BEEN TAKING CARE OF ME AND THE KIDS LONG
BEFORE YOU EVER MET ME SO I SORRY YOU FOUND MORE
HAPPINESS FOR ME WHEN I HAD NO JOB..AND MORE
HAPPINESS WHEN I WAS DISCOURAGED ABOUT MARIO
SR. STOPPING CHILD SUPPORT..AND WHY?...WAS IT
BECAUSE THEN YOU COULD STROKE YOUR EGO AND SAY
YEAH IM TAKIN CARE OF HER SO SHE AINT GOIN NO
WHERE? AND THEN YOU COULD REST EASILY AT NIGHT
KNOWING I WAS DEPENDENT ON YOU SO WHEN WE
HAD AN ARGUMENT YOUR GREATEST DEFENSE WAS:
"HOW CAN YOU SAY I DON'T LOVE YOU LOOK AT ALL I
DO FOR YOU" WHEN I NEVER SAID YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME..
I SAID I DON'T WANT YOUR MONEY!!!DUMASS! YOU ARE
THE ONE THAT OFFERED TO HELP OUT EVEN WHEN I
SAID NO! SAVE YOUR MONEY ! GET OUT OF YOUR
SITUATION IF YOU NEED TO SINCE YOU WERE SO
MISERABLE AT HOME??! BUT YET YOU SEEMED TO FIND
HAPPINESS WHEN YOUR EXCUSE NOT TO LEAVE IS
BECAUSE YOU HAD TO TAKE CARE OF ME..WELL LOOK
...EVEN NOW YOUR WAY TO HAPPINESS FAILED!!!! YOUR
INDECISIVE STATE OF MIND IS JUST TOO MUCH FOR
ME..SO YOU RESENTED ME WHEN YOU HELPED ME NOW
YOU RESENT ME FOR HELPING MYSELF!?? LOOK PAL, 3
YEARS AGO I WANTED NOT TO BE ALONE AND TO HAVE
A PARTNER AGAIN..AND EVEN THOUGH YOU WERENT
THE FIRST "NOT QUITE RIGHT" RELATIONSHIP AND HAD
MADE THE SAME CHOICE LONG BEFORE YOU OVER AND
OVER..ITS ALL GOOD!! WHATEVER JUST..
(***** DON'T WORRY ...BE HAPPY...REAL LOVE NEVER
FAILS & WILL FIND A WAY.. PEACE.. OUT!********)
READ BETWEEN THE LINES IF YOU LIKE : BUT IF WHAT
YOU READ ISN'T :
>>>>" KNOW FAITH,& YOU KNOW LOVE,
& YOU KNOW PEACETHEN YOU'D AGAIN NOT
KNOW MY INTENTIONS AND JUST ANALYZE AND
CRITICIZE.. IN THAT CASE........GOOD LUCK ON FINDING
THAT #1 FRIEND IN JESUS...I KNOW YOU WILL!.. JUST
MIGHT TAKE MORE TIME THEN WHAT I WOULD HAVE
WANTED FOR YOU.. BUT ITS HIS WILL NOT MINE THESE
DAYS.. AND ITS YOUR WILL..UNTIL THEN MIGHT HAVE TO
DROP YOUR PRIDE THING ON THE FLOOR SOMEDAY..BUT
IT WON'T DO ME ANY GOOD IF I ALLOW YOU TO LET ME
GO BACK DOWN TO WHERE I WAS.. GOD HAS BROUGHT
ME SOO FAR ALREADY I'D BE INSANE TO TURN BACK TO
WHAT OBVIOUSLY LOVE CLEARLY CLOSED THE DOOR
TO...IM DONE..IM DEDICATED TO HIM..JESUS MY LIFE HIS
WILL ...HANDS CLEAN... I'LL BE BY TO PICK UP MY THINGS
AND MY CAR THIS WEEK AFTER THE CHRISTMAS ..
BECAUSE PERSONALLY I DON'T WANT THE KIDS TO BE A
PART OF THIS DRAMA OR ANY OTHER DRAMA..I'LL CALL
YOU AFTER CHRISTMAS TO GET MY THINGS UNTILL THEN
PLEASE.. ALLOW ME PEACE...LIKE I HAVE ALLOWED FOR
YOU ....it took along time before i stopped doing the same thing over and over too! just like you! in a relationship and making the wrong things more important than truth..oh well ... in time we all change for the better..AMEN. for my gg heres a hint:priorties change for the better tooo!
