what does ThanksGIVING means to me....
To me life is about giving THANKS durring lifes ups and downs,,, IN the middle of all the storms in our lives.. we all have them.. we all have our stories... so here is mine
for the last almost 2 yrs has been a battle for me in my life.. lots of stuff that could way me down if i allowed it to.. BUt i dont... I made the choice to smile and be happy and make others laugh. well some of the things going on in my life are... my x started having an affair (this mothers day will be 2 yrs.).this black friday will be a yr since the last time i said i was done and told him to leave.. i took him back 3 times durring the affair... i did this so i never had any WHAT IFS in my mind..like what if i would have tried this or said this... so i have no what ifs in my life about it now.but it was very rough time.. he got her pregnant. but she lost it.. and then she got pregnant again.. and she should be giving birth any day now.. so much i could tell u that she and him did to me and said to me but i wont......Now i am Losing my house and my yukon because he filled bankruptcy on my yukon and stopped paying on our home and i didnt know it so it is in foreclosure...all so he can help take care of her 5 kids and their kid that that will be having anyday....but u know what, I pray everynight that God blesses them with everything.. that God gives them lasting love... that no bad karma comes back to them.....and only amazing thing happen in their lives...
a few other things going on are. my mother has a rare form of cancer.. very rare..and in stage 4.. it is called Leiomyosarcoma.. the specialist has only ever seen it in 2 poeple.. she has it all in her belly,chest,lung , and liver.. and had it on her head. she can not have surgery because there is waaaaaaay to much. same reason she can not have radiation. there is no cure for it... but it is really hard because she has had 2 sisters die from cancer at a young age and a brother... and her mother has had cancer too..pray for a miracle for her.... we could sure use one. we have lost enough family members to cancer.
and i am dealing with my oldest son out of 3 boys... that has gotten himself into some bad stuff.that i am trying to get him away from it. but in the middle of it all he is yelling and calling me names.. its very hard to deal with.its a long and hard road ahead...
But in the middle of all this i give thanks to EVERYTHING that has happend in the last 2 yrs.Because it all led us to right where i am suppose to be in my life.. it gives me strength. it gives me stories to share of hope with others dealing with the same things i am or have delt with...
so thatnks GIVING to me is about giving thanks to all things. And just GIVING. as in giving forgiveness or just giving a hug ,smile,money,time.this should all be everyday of the yr not just 1 day a yr.
and I choose to smile and laugh durring all the bad times and not let it keep me down.. i get down.. but i dont let myself stay down...
So Please give Thanks and Give....
