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Fuck man its been over a year now, and i still hurt as if it were the same day. Close to X-mas now and i want to scream and hurt cuz ur not here with us .....never again will u be... i miss u pops.......words cant stress how i really feel, nor can i find the words, to describe what i am really trying to say. Ur granddaughter is now six years of age and she misses u terribly day after day........
I stay strong and and fight to keep my emotions from showing ..cant make anyone happy if i myself am not...this i continue to hide in my own fucked up finding way. Cancer took u away from us and it did it very rapidly..im just thankful u didnt suffer much and feel much pain...u were and are to kind and caring of a man ..and i think this is why u said what u said to me on that fucked up god damn day.....
I continue to do what i promised u i would and being the man that u showed me to be...i continue to do so till the day we meet again to hug u once again and tell u all that i didnt get to tell u.......anyway pops gotta run for now i know u r still with us i feel it in my heart just not the same u know ....but pops just letting u know we miss u and love u and will see u this weekend ur granddaughter and i will be there to catch up on what ur granddaughter has written u and wants to show u ....see ya this weekend dad ..........luv u
When does getting over something u have had your entire life but lost overnight start to happen? It never seems to get better and sure as fuck doesn't get any easier. Im sick of this fucking place i am for the simple reason i had to sacrifice all that i have achieved in my life for the simple fact that someone got into something for the wrong fucking reason..i know same fucking story we all been there done that...so what makes u different...is it that u have moved on ? If u did move on do u still wish u hadnt? Yea wtfe .......When wall fails they all fail ..........been too fucking long for me and i still cant get passed it......although i don't and won't show it......wtf for right..my probs are my probs......but dont think for a second that just cuz i look like im doing well ...that i want ur fucking problems too.....i deal with my own shit one way or another ........for those out there who dont have the fucking balls or heart to speak whats on their mind...well keep on motherfuckers , gonna run into the wrong person one day..what will u do then.........i bet u then and only then...will u open ur fucking mouth for help ........where did the coldness that u showed go? where is the i dont give a fuck attitude now? but most of all where is the look on ur face that u had when u ruined my fucking life? Oh thats right......i have that one on and now u r the one crying for help.....how the fuck does it feel? How does ur handy work look in ur eyes...i would love to know.....cuz now its my turn to show u what u have taught me.......Im not talking about any specific individual here.........this is for the motherfuckers who like to play games and tear families apart......Materialistic shit is one thing but when u start fucking with peoples hearts........their reason for progressing......something is gonna end.....and this time....u wont have a say so on what does.......run motherfuckers...........think about the games and shit u do and have did in the past............look to ur left or to ur right when u sleep at night ..what do u see? nothing and noone u will always be by ur fucking selves..........stop fucking with peoples live .........end urs not many others
Alright here is the low down about me.......I am not here to make friends.......I am not here to yap yap yap my ass off to randomn people........i am here for my own reasons........mainly just to pass the time..........I dont see the point of someone asking so many questions to a total random person........well not more than two questions anyway......1. How are you? of course right...if a question should arise....and 2. ............well thats stays blank cuz i will stop talking to u after one.....lol...........
Like i said i am not trying to be a ass or a richard..<dick> but i got all I need or want here at home........
I have one girl in my life and that is all i am going to have.........my little six year old daughter Lexi..
So see i have reasons for the things that i do...or say.....I dont have time for games and if i do .........well i play them with my little girl.
I tried living for others before myself.......uh uh that shit dont work either but ........ the only person i put before myself is my baby girl...
So hey i know this does not make any sense at all for the most part but its what i was thinking at the time i wrote it..
So for all those fakes and ass kissers and pushovers...........wake the fuck up why are u reading this shit that has nothing to do with someone u know..............get a fucking life and stay out of mine........roflmao
Have a good day..........haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
