I met someone recently! He has beautiful eyes, brown hair & is the most wondeful guy in the whole world.
Our love ran deep into me. Consumed me! Swallowed me! All I thought about was the day when he would be mine & I could be his.
You see, I have this childish dream that I will meet someone and fall head over hills for him & he would want nothing more in the world to be with me. I thought that I had finally found him. I hoped that it was him. I prayed to GOD that it was him.
I still don't know if I got my answer. If the answer was no, this is not him, it would make sense right now because last night he broke up with me. He completely crushed me.
I am so sick of this shit. I hate it when someone gets in so close and then they just tear my lil heart to pieces. I don't know if I can take it anymore. Everytime this happens, I lose even more trust in guys. I don't think I can honestly trust any man ever again. My gaurd will always be up. Waiting on them to leave me.
He was the first guy that I ever truely imagined being his wife. He was the first guy that I wanted to have a baby with. (I love my son, but I didn't love his father and so now my son is having to pay for my mistakes!) I truely thought, "WOW!!! This is the guy that I am goin to have babies with and spend the rest of my life with!"
I guess I was wrong. I guess it's just not in the stars for me to ever be in love and happy.
