Ok...this is a warning here that this is gonna be sappy. So if you aren't into it...don't read it.
I guess a lot of us come to this site looking for friendship, maybe a little flirting, maybe a little sex...and once in awhile a fling, whether its online or meeting face to face. I think I was looking for a way to pass the time, enjoying the attention, having fun and enjoying the friendships I'd made along the way...
There was this ONE day that changed all of that for me, and as sappy and cliche' as it sounds...the world stopped for a minute, and I'm pretty sure I caught my breath. What has ensued from that point caught us both by surprise, but interestingly, neither of us were disturbed by the feelings we had for each other. In fact, we were comfortable with it and embraced it.
This man...is my everything. He's kind, thoughtful, intelligent. He's funny, and sensitive and gorgeous. He's just ENOUGH bad boy to keep things interesting, and just ENOUGH of a good man to make him perfect. He says all the right things at the right time without effort. He makes me laugh out loud despite myself, and he makes me cry when no other man has ever claimed that right. We say the same things at the same time...and even though he is miles away...I can feel him over there when he's happy, or sad or hurt.
This kind of love is silver screen caliber..its the kind that people watch from afar and wish they had. Its the kind that people spend their whole lives waiting to find. I feel so lucky, and so honored to have found this man and to discover that he loves me the way that I love him too. I want to kiss him awake in the morning, and put him to bed at night. I want to be there when he's hurting, and celebrate his milestones. I want to be gentle with his heart.
Anyone who reads this and continues to have any doubts about how I feel surely has missed the point. There are still a few naysayers out there who either dont WANT to get it, or they are terribly jealous about what they dont (and won't) have. To them...I only hope they find someone like this in their lives to make them happy...and that the someone they find is free to give their heart completely as I have given mine.
So while there may be a few blips on the radar screen, we are secure enough in our relationship to move past that and on with the life we have planned for ourselves one day. And since I cant shout it off a mountaintop right now, or fly a big banner across the sky I'm saying it here for anyone interested to see.
"I love you Jason"
(and I'm totally gonna marry that boy someday)
