I just want to start of by saying I hope you all are having a splended evening. for it to be a Monday I have to say mine has went exceptionally well. I woke with a smile on my face as big as the state of Texas.
I have the most loving man in my life now, he is my reasons for going on, he has given me hope and support and has helped me in some troubling sittuations. It was he who helped me keep my sanity, true a lot of times I say I dont suffer from insanity I rather enjoy the hell out of, but the sanity I was about to lose was the kind that would have eventually taken my life I do believe. I was in a mess, but thanks to him giving me the boost of confidence, the hope and the Balls to stand up and say I am not going to do this any more, I am not going to continue to live my life this way , I have someone that is wonderful , grand, marvelous, just all sorts of great things in life. Finally I feel loved, I feel like I can love again.
I went through 2 divorces and let me tell you it was hard, I said after the last one was final I wouldnt ever make that mistake again, but you know, I look at it like this, I am a bit glad they didnt show me love, that way now I know what it really and truly feels like to have it, you learn to appreciate the small things in life, or so I do. I'ts been a long road for me to travel but to have what I have now, I would have to say it was worth it, all the pain and heartache I endured paid off, it's true what they say, good things come to those who wait.
I know there are skeptics out there who would read this and say what a joke, well you know if someone had of told me this was going to happen this time last year I would have said the same. so please understand when I say I love this man. I truly love him heart and soul. He has shown me more love and kindness and respect than any man I have been with, I had a few good times when I was married to my first ex, but that all came to a crashing halt.
I am not here to dwell on my past, I am here to say I am looking forward to my future.
What didnt kill me made me stronger it seems. made me more cautious as well, but I know this is real.
I go to bed with a smile on my face and I wake with one. my heart flutters and my tummy does little things when I see his loving face staring back at me, no my friends, this isnt puppy love, I am 28 yrs old, far out of my puppy yrs, been there done that and well you know the deal.
I can only hope you all that are where I once was sitting and wishing and dreaming for like this to come your way , that your wishes come true as mine have. I want to scream this from the roof tops. I want to sky write it, I want to make notes and paste them to everyones page, I want to do cartwheels, back flips, hand stands, what ever, I am so just wow, I am feeling something I havent experienced before and I am still smiling, its true what they say as well, cant keep a good dog down for long, this dog turned into a shining star and I am going to shine like there is no tomorrow, I am going to love like there has never been another. so to my ex's eat your heart out. you didnt want me but someone else does, perhaps I can be for him that i wasnt good enough to be for you.
I am sure a few of you may wonder who I am talking about, if you know, kewl, if not, perhaps in time you will find out , but whats important is this man has my love and devotion as well, sorry guys, I am taken so you are simply sol for anything other than friend ship, not a man out there worth me messing this up.
Baby I love you and I want you to know I will tell you each and every moment I have, I dont care if I am so sick I cant hold my head up , I will see to it that you get the love and respect you deserve, you have had a long rough road to travel as well and it's time that the 2 of us finally be rewarded for the shit we have endured for so long, I dedicate not only this blog to you, but my life, in front of everyone to see, I LOVE YOU FOR EVER ALWAYS AND INFINITY , YOUR loving friend and companion for the rest of our days, I cant promise you I will love you for the rest of your life, but I will promise you I will love you for the rest of mine
