I am not really feeling to well at the moment. Had a migraine all day and a temp of 103 :( Stress is such a bad thing for my illness (INFO IN MY BLOGS) so I really try to do the best thing I can for me...to try to stay away from stress which isn't sometimes fair to others...I have always been a person to think of others first...until I got sick a few years back...then I continued for a while as I got sicker, Now I can't give away what I do not have!
Now it HAS to be about "ME"! But then how do I deal with the guilt I get from people...and myself, if I put myself first?
When you say to someone, I am sorry I can't do this becuase it is effecting me a lot and crushing me, So I have to protect myself...please understand...then you feel guilt! What good is it to think about YOU! Or how about this...I want to help you out, but I can't because I don't feel well or, no money no gas...
See I am just not being me!! PLUS..with this crap...I need to blog it because I tell you My MISERY DOESN'T LOVE COMPANY i would rather be alone don't like people to see me weak and vulernable it is a not so fun state to be in!!
So if anyone has anything to help...please lend me a msg ok!! Thanks!
Weak and CRUMBY!
