Have you ever had that feeling that someone you loved didnt really love you back. I get this way sometimes and i dont like that feeling. People just dont understand me and it makes me feel like im the only one who does not exsist. I do everything for other people and i get hardly anything back. Am i selfish for wanting something back or am i just Expecting too much? i find that the only real pupose to life is to die. We live and we make ourselves into this great thing just to meet the ultimate goal of death. No one can avoid it it will come and it will take you. I think that i am starting to understand the meaning of life and i dont like it. Why do we blind ourselves from the truth? Isnt that what we all seek? The truth is we blind ourselves because we are afraid of death. I can honestly say for the first time i welcome death. Im not suicidal at all. If it comes soon im ok with that. I feel that love cannot be held within my heart because im hard to understand. Even for myself. I expect that me and my GF wont last much longer and to her i say im sorry for makeing u mad. We dont need to discuss the issue at all but i know you are on ur last nerves and i know that i will take you overboard. Im not afraid to face the truth i welcome the truth because its going to happen whether i like it or not. To all the people who think they have nothing. Everyone has something. Just some people dont realize how powerful it is. Its the one thing that drives all of us on. Its our life force. Its love. I have it and i know i have it. I just cant hold on to it. I say try to hold on to it as best u can because once its gone its hard finding more of it. Trust me i know.
