Weeks gone by and things seem to not get any better, i've been in a really bad depression. i don't know what to think about my life and how things have been going lately.my only thought is to grit my teeth and bear it. my doctor and i haven't talked about this, i just told him i've been moody and he said it's probably an affect of my medication. i really hope not because i have been jumping on Kenny for things that i have done myself and i've been bitching to him about how he can't do something, and i turn around and do it. i've tried not to do this so much but it just happens. i've destroyed things that i never knew i'd appreciate later, and i lost someone i really care about when we got together. I was in love. i felt he didn't feel the same way and i started hanging out with Kenny. i got bitched at for a picture that i had, and i lost him. he was a great guy and i loved him so much, but i couldn't be with a man that didnt love me. this was 2 years ago almost. i can't believe things took that turn and changed so quickly. but i guess everyone is happy now. (sometimes) there's a little girl that loves me like her mommy and i don't know what to do about that if i ever had to leave. i guess i'm going to stop bitching and end this with "HELP!!!"
