feedie's blog: "was not prepared"

I had 9yrs to prepare, Thought I was prepared but I wasn't. 31 yrs of marriage in good health seemingly she was a beauty my dear wife.The last 9yrs I thought that God would heal her, but he didn't i wasn't prepared.Being alone is not at all easy, laying next to her fo r40 yrs then gone.What happened its called life.I am not good at alone at all no one to hold! cuddle with! no spooning no hugging! no one to pamper no little feet to rub and care for! I am not prepared! 63 and alone not at all prepared.My advice to any one that's in a relationship that was intended for life! REdemine each other stop condemning each other, build up stop tearing down one another,also look back and remember why you wanted to be with that person! fall back in lust if you must  because that's how you got started. I will be back as I journey on to share!!!