I am trying to understand, but I don't. God is so amazing, and so big. Powerful. He can do things to make life so easy for us. But, ultimately, we have a curse, called FREE WILL and CHOICE. In hurt, you choose to hurt someone back, or choose to run away because of the hurt. But, once you keep running and there's nothing real there, you always return home.....where your heart is. But why do the ones that are supposed to love us most hurt us the most? Why do we run away, instead of embracing that loved one that we cherish so much? When your heart is connected to someone, and you have loved like you never have before, that will never be replaced or found again. When you KNOW you have that ONE that God gave you, it will never get better. We choose to stop running, and give it to God. Then and ONLY then will it be better than ever before, and better than anything you could have imagined. I just don't understand sometimes. If you love someone, stand firm in that, and quit running or making excuses of why you can't love them back. If you love someone........then just DO it. Show it. Live it. Prove it. Because, when you don't, it makes you question wether or not any of it was ever real or true. That's such a trap and lie that we buy into so freely. stop before you create even more hurt and anguish. Don't put someone you love through that. It's not worth it. Choose to love the way you promised to. Don't turn your back, or run to something else. Give it to God and let him provide your comfort and strength to love that person regardless of what they choose to do back to you. In the end, that person will see the truth and realness of it all, and then you will forever have that life of love you always dreamed for, hoped for, and asked God for. It's not easy. It's the hardest thing in the world to do. And it will get to a point of where you question the validity of it all, and question if it was ever real. You'll get to a point of where you want to give up and not believe anymore. But stand your ground. God has given you the power and strength through him to sustain the fight. Love that gift like you have never loved before. Treat them as you want to be treated. God will reward you and bless you for it. I don't understand it at all. And the hurt, pain, and torment seems to be unbearable. But, I CHOOSE to stand here regardless in my beliefs, and on the ground that God has given me through His word. I choose to do what's right in the sight of God. I choose to believe in what He has given me and promised me. I will be okay. God will see me through this road. One way or the other
