O'kay... I guess that it is about time for me to do my annual blog on the holidays. This holiday season is a bit more meaningful than the past few have been. I always experience a serious bout of depression during the holidays. I lost my brother in law to cancer and my father and my step mother both passed away within eight months of each other a few years ago. I realise that I have been selfishly begrudging the holidays since and have been a down right SCROOGE. I guess I just handle things poorly. But, I'm doing my best to break out of this cycle. I have a very close friend here on fubar that is going through some difficult and trying times. Her mother's health is declining due to cancer. I posted a comment onto her profile saying that she needs to spend this holiday season creating memories. Doing so will help her to get through these trying times, but it will also affect those that are closest to her; giving them lasting and cherrished memories of her inner strength. I think I need to practice what I preach...
I live with two of my brothers in our family home. I've been attempting to care for my older brother. He has end stage emphysema and C.O.P.D.. This disease is a slow killer. But, his health has been declining more rapidly in recent months. On top of that, he has a skin cancer that is centered just under his right eye and is spreading up into his lower eye socket. I took him to see a plastic surgeon last week that is wanting to do a biopsy. I know from past experience that once oxygen reaches the cancer cells, they just seem to explode through out the body. So, I've got this on my mind all of the time. My own health has been on the decline as well. Type 2 diabetes and all of the bells and whistles that go along with it. I've done good in controlling it, though. I was hospitalised last March for pancreatitis. While there I weighed in at a whopping 390 pounds. Well, I've last 40 pounds since just cutting sugar from my diet and watching what I eat. But, damn it, I can't drink my rum any more!
Any way, I realise that I need to concentrate more on the impression I am leaving on the younger members of my family. I have two nephews locally that I love dearly and I don't want them remembering their U.B. (Uncle Brian) as a crotchety old Scrooge.
So, I say to you ~ my fellow fubar-ians: Count your blessings, pray for your loved ones and have a joyful and memorable holiday season. Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! A Joyous Kwanza! Feliz Navidad y prospero ano y felicidad!
I really have not been in a celebratory mood. Lack of finances, the recent passing of loved ones, the economy and general uncertainty about the future just makes it hard to get into the "Christmas spirit".
Yet, the closer we get to the date, the more I feel almost guilty for not putting up a front. But, ultimately, I'm gonna go with the way I feel down deep and... yeah... Bah friggin' Humbug!
Was watching the local sports news on the TV... The Texas Rangers have paid 52 million dollars to some Japanese team just to TALK to a Japanese pitcher in baseball. With the economy the way it is, why couldn't they use that 52 million to help feed the hungry here in the U.S.? Grrrr!
Here I am... bored out of my gourd. I've been told that I ought to create a blog. So, here is a blog...
Blog. Such a weird word. As I sit here sipping on my Miller High Life (the champagne of beers)... stoned out of my head on my pain meds and muscle relaxers... I ponder. What the hell do I blog about?
Maybe, I could tell the world a bit about myself. But, being as how I'm bored and seem to be living such a boring existence, what's the point? I've been feeling under the weather here lately. Just thought y'all should know that. Whoever "y'all" is. Really... Who actually reads these things?
Maybe I could go on a rant about my belief in ancient alien visitation. I actually created a discussion group on this topic in a competitive social site. It is my belief that we humans are the product of an alien genetic experiment. Everyone wonders where the missing link is. You know, the link between chimpanzees and humans? Well, look to the skies. The Holy Bible and various other ancient texts tells us that the "sons of god (angels) looked on the daughters of men and took unto them wives..." Horny angels... go figure. The result of this union between angels and the daughters of man created the nephilum. God found the offspring of this union repulsive and created the great flood to wipe out the abomination. When he did this he created the earth dwelling demons. Freaky shit... no? I'm into crap like that. Religion. I'm not religious but enjoy studying different religious and spiritual philosophies. And then I digest them and create my own ideas about crap. I sometimes think that I am the anti-christ. I got to piss...
Hey... can anyone tell me what a 1898 Russian ruble is worth?
O'kay... so, there. I blogged.