Well I guess I just needed to vent. So he it goes. I really don't understand what men want. I was with a man for 6 yrs and thought it was going well. He was my best friend. We were friends for a long time before we got together. I did everything for him. I cooked and cleaned and never denied him anything. My whole life revolved around him. He cheated on me 3 times in the 6 yrs. (3 times that i know of). the last time was with his ex g/f. and was numerous times. Found out he would be on the phone with me while she was right there waiting for him to get off the phone with me while I was at work. He would tell me he loved me and then go sleep with her. Well long story short we talked it out and i forgave him (like an idiot) and we tried to move past it. That didn't work. Just when I started to trust him again he said he dosen't want to be with me and he dosest love me. That was almost a yr ago now. So I dusted myself off and tried to start again. (which wasn't easy) Now my biggest pet peeve is a liar. I met a guy and told him upfront to just be honest. No matter what. He agreeded. Well this guy messed up and text me when he meant to text another women. LOL needless to say that was done.Time went by started to see another guy. It was wonderful. He was everything I was looking for in a guy. Yeah he had some issues but workable. All of a sudden i didn't get a chance to go see him for a week. and he got pissed and said i can't give him what he wants. He wants someone he can be with all the time. Well i work 12 hour shifts nights. and he dosen't drive right now. He expects me to run up to see him all the time i have off. Not a prob. But, somedays its hard either I am tired or just don't feel like doing anything but relaxing at home alone. In the beginning I told him there might be times I didn't feel like driving up to see him. He said he understood. Now he dosent. LOL what am I doing wrong???I go there and spend days there with him. Just comming home every other day to feed my poor cat who misses me. lol I don't know I am really beginning to think it is me. I am tired of the guys who just wanna jump in bed and thats it. Seems like that what they all want. I swear I am just going to become a nun. LOL I guess I am just tired of opening up to guys and letting them in and for them to turn around and kick me in the teeth. UUUGGGHHH!!!! Well i needed to vent just very confused and hurt.
