The Vampire Lestat's blog: "Various stuff."

Sometimes I lie awake in bed Thinking about the things you said So lost for words, so lost to tell you how I feel So terrified of changing what I thought was real It's too bad, you're gone It's too bad, you're not alone And I know that you couldn't see That it's too bad that you're gone And not here with me Standing here, trying to make some sense of this There's nothing between us Still I can feel your awkwardness You're so lost for words So you just tell me I'm your friend There must be one reason Only one reason in the end It's too bad, you're gone It's too bad, you're not alone And I know that you couldn't see That it's too bad that you're gone And not here with me So why are you pulling away It must be from things that I say And I'm thinking you're thinking of him So why do I even care at all

So, do you feel what I feel when it all comes down? I see it in your eyes Throw, throw me a line so I won't drown The shore just seems to fall Another callous on my heart No, there's no way to stop The sting inside when it comes apart I realize who we are No, no matter when it stops The broken pieces cut my hands Leaving only scars We pretend we've got this all figured out Not as selfish as we are So, clear the dust off my soul as I fade out You knew I wouldn't be here long Another callous on my heart No, there's no way to stop The sting inside when it comes apart I realize who we are No, no matter when it stops The broken pieces cut my hands Leaving only scars And I didn't want to lose Or want to understand I fell right through your hands Now there's nothing left to lose My life crumbles in your hands I lay me over and over again There's no way to stop The sting inside when it comes apart I realize who we are No, no matter when it stops The broken pieces cut my hands Leaving only scars (Do you feel what I feel, what I feel?) No, there's no way to stop The sting inside when it comes apart I realize who we are (Do you feel what I feel? Leaving only scars) Leaving only scars

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Please explain a couple of things to me How could you leave and then turn your back on me if only we said goodbye, maybe then i would respect my life in the end i am so ashamed of what you did (why) you said that you would never leave,i didnt even see you go (why) you just up and turned your back on me,for reasons I will never know (why) now i am starring at an empty space,its the place that you used to be (why) and the look you see upon my face,is the gift from you to me a haunting pain inside that lingers over me this is not the way its supposed to be if only we said goodbye maybe then i would respect my life,in the end and im so ashamed of what you did (why) you said that you would never leave,i didnt even see you go (why) you just up and turned your back on me,for reasons I will never know (why) now i am starring at an empty space, its the place that you used to be (why) and the look you see upon my face,is the gift from you to me you made me what i am you made me what i am you made me what i am you made me what i am (why) you said that you would never leave,i didnt even see you go (why) you just up and turned your back on me,for reasons I will never know (why) now i am starring at an empty space,its the place that you used to be (why) and the look you see upon my face is the gift from you to me is the gift from you to me

I know i'm gonna wear out this song. But, it means alot means something different to me than what it means to the singer.

I was thinking it's amazing how we can laugh at other peoples misfortunes. Britney Spears going crazy and lopping off all her hair. People who wreck their cars. Laughing at the people who get cheated on. etc etc. We all have our little things that we know is wrong to joke about but, we do it. But, when that same stuff happens to us it's not so funny is it?... Not so funny when we are the ones getting robbed, getting broken ribs, getting diagnosed with diseases, getting the pain. hmm I dunno like I said just a thought.

Sono realmente un poco sorprendo circa come la gente raggiunge tutto il livello basso di tempo. È trendy da trovarsi più? Può chiunque giusto mantenerlo reale? Sickens me e mi domando perchè provo affatto. Così vada sulla menzogne di conservazione. Iete danneggiandosi che c'è ne di voi lo danneggeranno mai.

I'm sorry you said you'd be there till the end.. Sorry that you up and left and got with your friend. Sorry that I wasted your time. Sorry that I wanted you to be mine. I'm sorry we fought and I up and went away. Guess I got scared for come what way. Sorry I know all your personal things.. Sorry I never got back my mother's ring... Sorry I believed you said I was great. Sorry I ever said I wanted to date. Guess i'm not worth two cents like I thought... Guess I better put those bears in the fire that I bought. I guess I should have never broke my heart. I'm sorry I ever broke my heart. Sorry that the pain ever had to start. But, put the blame on me.. put the blame on me.. i'll carry the weight of the world on my shoulders put the blame on me. I'm sorry I work a dead end job sorry you ever saw me sob. just continue with your happy life and put the blame on me. it's ok just put the blame on me... akon you're not the only one with apologies...