So on friday my husband leaves to go back to iraq, i waited six long months to see him and now i have to wait nine months till i get to see him again... he has just got to know his son and just thinking how much it bothers him knowing that when he comes home again he has to redue the relationship he has with him again... his daughter, i know will be very sad to see him go her being six she knows kinda what is going on. Me well ill just really miss him to be honest but to see the look in my daughters eyes when she comes home from school and asks where daddy is and i have to tell her is going to break me down. I think the other thing that is getting to me is that i have surgery on tuesday and i really wanted to wake up from that with him beside me, knowing this is not going to happen bumbs me out and im not going to lie scared. well just thought i would put my thoughts down maybe it will help me.
