Well the last time I posted a blog it was concerning the fact that the company that I was working for was not licensed here in Vegas and after a month and two weeks they pulled out of Vegas and left me high and dry with out a job or stability in my life, so my husband and I went ahead and put our beautiful house on the Market to sell and we had to purchased another house that is smaller and cheaper in Summerland.
Well this morning is the 1st of October and I felt as if this month would have been better then last month since my Birthday was a crash for not having enough money to even have any fun. Splurging is out of the question as well. Anyways, my husband gets an email from his employer asking for him to call his boss around 10 AM this morning.
Ok, let me state that my husband was their top producer for their company, but he had to hear the news of. “Ian, we will pay you your base for (One) more months, but after this month JLM direct will no longer be able to do loans in Nevada. Ian was like, “WHAT!” Well, the company is going threw a merger and the reason why the company doesn’t want to get license here in Vegas/Nevada is because Vegas has a lot of fraud. Now, my husband and I have a lot of bills and an 1800.00 dollar Mortgage payment and now we will both be with out a job.
On a good note, I have an interview with a company that has nothing to do with Mortgages. The economy is crashing all around us and my husband and I are fighting every day and we are trying to help out yet another person. We are scared that we are not going to be able to support our selves. but now we are trying to help support her. Bless her heart she too is deeply depressed. Why? Well every since the new Patriot act, it is harder and harder to get your identity back if you don’t have your birth certificate/SS. Brian and Shadowman who are now up in Washington stole her stuff and didn’t give back her Birth certificate and SS card. They destroyed it all.
So, now I am dealing with a friend that has no ID and no way of getting on her own and we are suffering with out a job and many people want us to help them out. She is depressed that she cant help enough and she can only do so much. She is wonderful person that I would do any thing for, but sometimes I think of how I wish that everyone would just quite being so about them selves and realize that they are not alone in this fucked up world we all have to live in.
My husband and I have helped many people out during their times of trials and sufferings? When are we going to get a break? When are we going to have a blessing? Why do we have to suffer and be with out? Why is it we are always the ones that help everyone out and no one is there for us?
Now, look if you think that me ranting and raving right now is selfish. Well fuck you and the horse you came in on. I am so sick and tired of being everyone’s ride because they don’t have a car or everyone’s sanctuary when they don’t have a home or place to live.
We are tired and we need to know that we have friends that are there for us too. When do we get help? When do we get someone who cares? I guess never. You are probably thinking, why I would say that. Well, when was the last time someone helped us out? Shit, I can’t even get help on drinks of supplies when it comes to the meetings because NO ONE HAS A JOB!
It isn’t like I have a Mother or a Father that gives a rates ass about me to help me. Fuck, they only care about them selves or they can’t get their minds out of the clouds to even look down and see that they can’t even be a mother that cares. I get, JESUS THIS or JESUS THAT. I don’t want to hear about GOD, JESUS OR SAITAN. I just want to know that people actually give a rates ass about me or others.
We have sewed enough seed to help the world. NOW we need help…Where is it? Fucken who knows thanks to the Government and President fucken Bush Bitch… GOD I hate life right now.
Thanks for listening
Countess Nessa
