THIS WAS ALSO POSTED AS A BULLETING
I am just so excited that i could burst\*// damn, i just did. ill finish anyway.
in a mere few months, i am going to not only meet, but have substantial or significant dialogue with two of my all time favorite actors.
I will get an expense trip to London and while i am NY i get a Manhatten Luxury room.
life is good when you do what you would do for free, you somehow jumped ahead of a whole bunch of talented people with little or no experience on your resume.
Life is good when need plays LITTLE role.
Life s good when you can fulfill, previously thought, unattainable goals.
life is good when exciting events come regular
life is good when you're in love
Life is good when you're in control
I wish my life was good-soundz good doesnt it?
i am soo fckn funny
but really, no one listened in the chatroom i was in, and i am excited about the band, of course the movie, the screeenplay(s, even softball after years away from the game.
i have a lot to be happy about and a lot to be thankful for...it is just i know that life is all about balance, have i had enuff hard times to earn this incredible opportuninty to be, well at least a famous face.
Then, I realize that is just fear of success. it's a real condition. One doesnt feel worthy to receive good things or have good things happen. it is often the impediment that keeps them standing still.
i have had hard times. Two decades from birth i had a mother with untreated depression. Of course i rebelled and have spent a few nights in jail more than once.
Life hasnt been rosey. It got a lot better in May 2004. It was the 4th day, aound 2AM when a surge of energy woke me from a deep sleep. I cant explain it, but i became enlightened.
I am still just as flawed as anyone, but my eyes were opened to so many things. I dont know what happened that could cause this and get a little freaked thinking about it. It makes me think on a deeper level regarding the supernatural. Most of us are unomfortable thinking on a level involving the questions that surround our existenCe.
i just wanted to kind of wrap it up. i dont care if you read this, if you did, i hope you got something from it. if you didnt then i could say pretty much what i want about you.
i did kind of go into poem mode. i switched gears. that is me to be random. i quit caring if someone reads my material. in fact,keeping length to them, is actually an intentional deterrent to people i would prefer not to read it anyway-just skim and maYbe rateit.
whatever, i will write. an audience here doesnt pay me for it, so, except for a few with real feedback, it gains me no profit, other than having it read. a high rating is nice, but not
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there, thats my bulletin. no edits, no censure, and not a single fart
