Hello Everyone, It has been a while since my last blog and thought I would pick a subject we all could relate to since most of our friendships and relationships these days tend to be online. I wanted to talk about unconditional love, when I hear the words it means that no matter what another person loves you and accepts you for what you are and what you represent to yourself, family, friends, acqaintances, coworkers etc etc etc....
Unconditional Love as I understood it in my younger years was very different as I think of it today. The only thing I can say is that as I get older I think about things more in depth than what I used too, and I have to attribute that with the time I spent getting to know my step mom Jeannie, she is not only a remarkable woman, a very wise one, also a retired clinical physchologist at that. Which I always thought it would take someone of that nature to love and understand my dad. Everyone that knew him he sure had his way of doing things that was sure different from everyone else, but then again thats what makes us all unique in our own special way that god made us and Jeannie had no problem accepting dad for his.
It took me a while to fully understand their unconditonal love it wasn't until Jeannie had a heart attack grocery shopping with my dad and ended up with a triple bypass surgery and lost 25 percent usuage of her heart, which I didn't know she had lost any for a very long time like a year later, no one ever said anything. I did notice that she had stopped going to alot of places with dad after her recovery, and I started to think that maybe she had lost interest in doing things with dad, they usually never went anywhere without each other before her attack.
Dad was a very active man he was always up at 5am over at Mcdonalds with the rest of his morning friends at 5:30, he walked there every morning. It was all those years of working all those crazy hours for Lockheed and his internal clock was never off unless he was sick but that was very rare for dad, he had a hernia operation once or twice but other than that he was always very healthy. Jeannie cooked everything low fat or nonfat as possible as she could she has that italian hertitage and always in the kitchen preping meals everyday, it is her favorite place to be, and it showed with all the time and care she took to prepare alot of great meals to send home with us kids so we had leftovers all the time on holidays.
Dad slowly went back to his normal routine being gone everyday at the airport taking care of the EAA kids or other things for the Museum out at Paso Robles Airport, He flew the kids from EAA out of Santa Maria, Paso Robles, and San Luis Obispo. He would call Jeannie at home at least a couple of times a day to tell her that he loved her and when he would be home.
After I had learned of Jeannie loosing part of her heart from the attack I asked her one day, if she ever worried about dad crashing while flying at his age, and she wasn't worried at all, after her attack she had purchased a book on death and read it. I used to worry about my dad flying all the time but after that day talking to Jeannie about it she said if it's your time to go, then so be it.
I never worried about dad after that day, because it was at that moment in time when I understood the love Jeannie had for him as a unconditional love with no expectations of dad to stay home and nurture her after her attack, she believes that life is meant to be enjoyed to the fullest and dad had definately accomplished that in his life.
Just a couple of weeks after dad's death Jeannie had received a phone call from a woman that dad had been helping do research at the Airport in Paso Robles in the library the day before his death. She had told Jeannie that dad had been telling her of all of his accomplishments in his life and she was totally amazed by them and she complimented dad for living a very full life, and the conversation ended with dad making this one last comment. " If they had told me years ago I would have been this happy with my life I would have laughed."
When I heard Jeannie tell me those words my heart melted because I already knew that it was true and it just reinforced that everything would be ok with him gone now.
Good night every one Im going to bed. I have to be up early for the kids to be at school.
