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Breakfast It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80's arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him In five years now. I was surprised, and asked him, "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said, "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is." I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life." True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of: all that is ... all that has been ... all that will be ... and all that will not be. With all the jokes and fun that are in e-mails, sometimes there is one that comes along that has an important message. I had to share it with you all. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything they have. (Amen to that!) Oh, by the way, peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank. I received this from my sister. I don't know where she got it. I would like to believe it was a story about MY father and mother. I hope you share this with someone you care about. I JUST DID

this brings back memories of school and sitting in the principals office in trouble..lol once again i have been banned from the mumms..*it wasn't me*...lol. why is it that people have to start drama and why is it only certain people who do bother me? I end up getting worked up over something a complete stranger says..usually them being judgemental or just plain out childish behavior...and before you know it wham there i am letting myself be just as lame as they are..insanity..total insanity. I try to think of myself as laid back and mellow but in all reality..at least my reality i am stress out and tense and usually at the edge..the edge of what i do not know...nor do i want to delve into myself at the moment to figure it out...so i have come here to vent, laugh...plan revenge...lol. hope everyone is having a great friday and i hope the weekend goes slow...peace

you gonna let it all hang out?

I was sitting here thinking about the friends I have met since joining ..so I went into my friends list and decided to clean house and delete the ones that I haven't kept in contact with and vice versa. I found that I had 258 friends..so I started looking..each one I clicked on I have visited their site at least twice..each one I have bought or recieved a gift from..I have rated sites and all of them had visited and rated mine...I realized that even though the ones I have met here I will most likely never meet in real life..each one of you have given me the pleasure of entering a little piece of your world as I have opened up a little of mine..whether it be the real person or someones online fantasy self..friends. After I went through I only deleted 10 people off my list..they were one time never hear from again..lol..or have left the site...I was happy to know that each one of you left are the ones I try my best to keep in contact with..and some of you are very special people in real life...to all of you I must say thank you and.....Peace

With a huge hug that lasted forever and tears streaming down our faces, I said goodbye to my son today. He is heading back to florida where he will be until Jan. 08 when he deploys. Its been a very emotional visit for all of us, but for my boy and me it has been, just like everything for us...a struggle. The time went fast and emotions ran high, we have an unusual relationship and I guess we always will have. My dad says it is a boy trying to make the transition into manhood and the hardest part of this transition is letting go of his mom. Power struggle and control..wanting to be a man but still holding on like a little boy then anger when he realizes that he hasn't let go all the way. 6'0 and 215lbs..he held onto me like he did when he was just a little guy..those big brown eyes looking at me...the tears started and he whispered to me..."I love you mom"...my heart is breaking and letting go is the hardest thing I have ever had to do...my heart is with him, he is in every thought behind every dream...my son is and always will be my little boy. My granddaughter Lexi who is 3 just cried and cried not wanting to leave and not understanding why the tears and sadness were there...but knowing she was going back to her house and nana would not be there..to laugh with, to wipe the tears or to chase away the cookie monster out of the bathroom...lol. So precious..she is the light of my life..nanas happy thoughts. Little molly marie who is only 6 mths just smile when i kissed her forhead..probably thinking that lady is the one who makes me laugh alot...she is funny..not knowing that her nanas' heart is heavy at the thought of letting her go.. My daughter-n-law..the one i loved from the start and the one who has become the light of my sons life..i have seen and felt the "tug-of-war" between her and I...all for the love of my son..me having to let go and her not wanting to share..lol she has stood by my boy and she loves him..I see it in her eyes when she looks at him.. So, as I watched Kristopher hugging his grandma and grandpa, not knowing if it might be the last time I felt grateful for them being such a big part of his life. And in a moments breath they were gone...and once again I am left with an emptiness that only they can fill...may their travels be safe...peace

I just need to write and get some stuff out...maybe it will make me feel better, at least i am hoping it will. My son and his family came in about 9 days ago..I hadn't seen him in a year and a half and was very excited with lots of different emotions going on...it was a very emotional reunion and I really was looking forward to spending some time with my son and two granddaughters who are 3yrs and 6mths...lexi and molly. The first night my son and I talked and things seemed as if they were going to be ok..i am a single parent and raised my son by myself, he has a great friendship with his granddad and grandma and i am grateful they were a big part of his life growing up. So of course he was talking about everything he wanted to do with me and grandma and grandpa while he was in. well my son and his wife had their 2nd anniversary last monday and i was asked to watch the babies all day and evening...which i jumped at the chance. I had planned on going shopping, out to the park for a picnic and swimming at my parents then having a little cookout and roast some mallows...just things i knew the kids would enjoy doing with their nana. When i told my son of the plans i had made he informed me that I wasn't allowed to take them anywhere..that i had to stay at my moms with them and wasnt even allowed to take them swimming! After listening to him set all these rules down I finally got him to agree to let me take Lexi to the store to buy her some things to play with like playdough, art supplies, bubbles, ect. he gave me two hours out with her...I was furious and very hurt. This boy whom i raised with alot of love and alot of sacrificing, the one i taught to swim at nine months old, the one who i did anything and everything for told me he didnt trust me with his kids! My reply was..."why"..I have never done anything to make him not trust me...I was a good mom who knew where he was and what he was doing at all times..i have never abused my son and never put him in any situation to be abused..including me staying single till he was raised because i didnt want to take the chance on getting with someone who would abuse either of us. I dont understand and I am so hurt that i dont know what to do. they have been to her mothers for the last five days...i have seen pics of all her family posted with the kids and my son...shooting guns, killing snakes...just crazy stuff...but not one pic has been posted from kristopher of me or any of his family...in fact no pics have even been takin of us. they will be leaving this friday and he has not done anything with me and i still have not gotten the girls for a while to take and show them off to my friends..i dont understand and this has really hurt my heart..I love my son, he will be deploying for Iraq in december so this visit is a very important one to me...but now i am emotionally a mess and all i do is cry...I am at a loss and dont know what to do about it so i thought i would write...peace

well i just got here today and found that a mumm which i posted lastnight was removed and i have been banned from posting for a week...which i will have to go to scrapper, e-mail him that is has been a week and ask to be put on the mumm list again...lol. I was told to put this mumm in my blog or bulletin because it has no place in the mumms...since i dont use my bulletin i have come here with my silly ass mumm...why you might ask? because i guess its where it belongs...lol... so here it is...brace yourself! SAVE ON FUEL, RIDE A DIESEL...YEAH OR NAY isnt this just terrible...yes i am a mumm sinner...lol

Well I am back online...whew went through major withdrawls from cherrytap and come back to find it has changed to FUBAR...whatever...i was always told "if it ain't broke don't fix it". So here I am back on the Fu...lol. I hope I can get back in to the swing of things..it feels weird and its only been about two weeks. I am very excited for tomorrow to get here. My son and wife and two grandbabies are coming home for about 13 days...haven't seen him in a year and a half and i can hardly wait till tomorrow:) I will be starting to make rounds and rate stash and pics tonight...so if you need some points just drop me a line and i will get to you asap...till then peace!

well my net is off till i dont know when, but do not fret it is not the end, i will be back with some cherry love, to spread around to everyone... till then all you cherries who are my friend, take care, be well and some luv to me send. just leave a note so i can see, all the cherries who have REALLY missed me....Peace. be back soon:) twoshy

OLD, BUT STILL INTERESTING, Those Born 1930-1979 READ TO THE BOTTOM FOR QUOTE OF THE MONTH BY JAY LENO. IF YOU DON'T READ ANYTHING ELSE---VERY WELL STATED TO ALL THE KIDS WHO SURVIVED the 1930's, 40's, 50's, 60's and 70's!! First, we survived being born to mothers who smoked and/or drank while they were pregnant. They took aspirin, ate blue cheese dressing, tuna from a can, and didn't get tested for diabetes. Then after that trauma, we were put to sleep on our tummies in baby cribs covered with bright colored lead-based paints. We had no childproof lids on medicine bottles, doors or cabinets and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, not to mention, the risks we took hitchhiking. As infants & children, we would ride in cars with no car seats, booster seats, seat belts or air bags. Riding in the back of a pick up on a warm day was always a special treat. We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle. We shared one soft drink with four friends, from one bottle and NO ONE actually died from this. We ate cupcakes, white bread and real butter and drank Kool-aid made with sugar, but we weren't overweight because, WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYIN G! We would leave home in the morning and play all day, as long as we were back when the streetlights came on. No one was able to reach us all day. And we were O.K. We would spend hours building our go-carts out of scraps and then ride down the hill, only to find out we forgot the brakes. After running into the bushes a few times, we learned to solve the problem. We did not have Playstations, Nintendo's, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 150 channels on cable, no video movies or DVD's, no surround-sound or CD's, no cell phones, no personal computer! S, no Internet or chat rooms....... WE HAD FRIENDS and we went outside and found them! We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no lawsuits from these accidents. We ate worms and mud pies made from dirt, and the worms did not live in us forever. We were given BB guns for our 10th birthdays, made up games with sticks and tennis balls and, although we were told it would happen, we did not put out very many eyes. We rode bikes or walked to a friend's house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just walked in and talked to them! Little League had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn't had to learn to deal with disappointment. Imagine that!! The idea of a parent bailing us out if we broke the law was unheard of. They actually sided with the law! These generations have produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers and inventors ever! The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas. We had freedom, failure, success and responsibility, and we learned HOW TO DEAL WITH IT ALL! If YOU are one of them.CONGRATULATIONS You might want to share this with others who have had the luck to grow up as kids, before the lawyers and the government regulated so much of our lives for our own good. While you are at it, forward it to your kids so they will know how brave (and lucky) their parents were. Kind of makes you want to run through the house with scissors, doesn't it?! The quote of the month is by Jay Leno: "With hurricanes, tornadoes, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?"