I hate that I find it so hard to trust anymore.
i hate that I second guess everything. I hate the fact that I really like this guy and I prolly am fooling myself again.
I hate that my jealousy is controling how I think, and I hate that my insecurities are ruling my brain. I hate that it may turn out to be right.
Does this mean I am a self fulling prophecy or my instints are really good?? I wish I knew??? I hate the fact that I like him so much. And that if he is playing with me, that it will hurt like hell again. God I would just love to live without that feeling of pain for awhile. But im starting to wonder if Alex has the right idea. Cut everything out and let nothing in and u cant be hurt.
