so here i am in a brand new relationsip with a great guy who loves me and treats me great, but i cant get over my own insecurities long enough to let him love me. i question every thing he does and everywhere he goes. like a stupid little bitch i check his calls on his phone when he isnt around and i have even went as far as to take down some of the "no name" numbers and call them when he wasnt around just to see if a girl will answer. each time my suspisions were unfounded. then i feel stupid and silly. so my question is will i be like this forever? i dont want to be, it doesnt feel good at all. i want to trust, i want to be secure in my relationship. did my ex ruin that for me or will i eventually learn to trust again? we even got into an argument about it this morning, he says if i dont trust him he shouldnt be here with me, and that is the last thing i want. i dont know what i would do without him. he has been my tiny piece of happyness in this crazy so called life. wow, what a first blog huh. oh well now u all know how insane i am, so welcome to my world folks, stick around its bound to be one hell of a ride...........
