TORREY , ITS NOT GETTING EASIER SINCE YOU HAVE BEEN GONE. I LOOK AT " YOUR STAR " UP THERE AND WISH YOU WERE HERE. YOU " WERE A SPECIAL ANGEL "
GIVEN TO ME FOR 24 YRS AND OH HOW , I ENJOYED WHAT WE HAD FOR THAT TIME , I JUST WANT TO HOLD YOU AND TELL YOU " HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU " AND TELL YOU THAT MOM HASN'T CHANGED , AND SAY I'AM MORE " COCKIER " THAN EVER . AND I TELL IT , LIKE IT IS . BUT YOU KNEW THAT ALREADY . ALL I HAVE IS " MEMORIES OF YOU " YOUR SMILE , YOUR SOFT VOICE OF YOU WHEN YOU TALKED , AND SO STUBBORN JUST LIKE ME. TORREY I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU SON , AND IF GOD WAS SITTING ACROSS FROM ME , , I WOULD TELL HIM , THANK YOU GOD FOR LEANING HIM TO ME . OH GOD , WHEN WILL IT GET BETTER . I'AM FAR FROM "PERFECT " AND " DEFINITELY " NOT " ANGEL " . I THOUGHT MY MARRIAGE WAS " BAD " THIS WAS BEYOND WHAT WAS DONE TO ME WHEN I WAS MARRIED . THE VERBAL ABUSE , ,PHYSICAL ABUSE , MENTAL ABUSE DOES NOT COMPARE TO WHAT WAS TAKEN FROM ME .
THE CHILD THAT I CARRIED AND RAISED AND LOVED A PART OF ME MISSING HURTS , WROTE BY CHERIE 8/31/02
