I have received many emails from concerned friends wanting to know why I haven't responded to their emails, so I thought I would post a blog to explain why I haven't been online, even tho my status said I was.
As some of you know, my Mother became very ill a couple of weeks ago. She was diagnosed with Diversticulitis. On Wednesday of last week she became even more ill with the flu. I had been sick, as well, for some time now. I had a number of tests run and was still waiting for the results when I began caring for my Mother. I am rarely ever sick, but for some unknown reason, I have been plagued by illness the last few months. On Friday of last week my oldest son, Alex, became ill with the flu, as well as my Step-brother, Coty. I too, had to be taken to the Dr. by Alex on Thursday morning, I had developed pneumonia. Basically, everyone in my family had fallen ill, and we had no one to care for us.
Saturday morning, I awoke, and felt like I had been run over by a semi. Every part of my body ached in pain, I could hardly draw a breath. I got out of bed with the intention of getting my cell phone to call 911 when I collapsed. I awoke in the hospital in an oxygen tent, heavily sedated. The nurse that was caring for me explained that the reason I had been so ill was that I had contracted Mono, and that the pneumonia was more than my body could handle, on top of that I had the flu. I literally thought I was going to die. I have never been so sick and scared before. I worried for my mother, son, and brother more than myself, who would take care of them?
The words of love and encouragement of my true friends, and medical staff, is what pulled me through. I wish there were words that were more heart-felt and sincere than "thank you", because if there were that is the words they deserve. Especially Mandy. Sitting with me night after night, your prayers, your friendship..goes above and beyond a nurses call of duty. You are an angel.
I am still very weak, but getting better a little each day. I am ordered to bed rest until Friday. So please remember me in your prayers and thoughts that I can get better, care for my family, and return to work as soon as possible.I am a single Mother living on only my income. I receive no child support, I rely on myself to make it. Right now I feel useless and worthless to everyone. I keep hoping that I'll catch a break, but I keep getting knocked down every time I think things are finally looking up.
I have to go back to bed now. It's so hard to sleep with so much on your mind. I am hoping by writing this, it will help clear my thoughts. God bless you all. I hope and pray you are all well. Thanks again for your love and support. xoxoxo
