why did he have to do it.... why wouldnt he listen to me... now its prision for him. Id been puttin off that fone call for a while now... never bein able to get tha bad feelin out... so that cal came to me... Now i feel horrible for not callin sooner... hearin his voice tellin me all this... i duno, i jus wish things could be different. I jus wish that everything was right in tha world. It seems that when things start to feel right an good somethin bad happens to bring me down again... This is tha first time ill be visitin someone in jail.. im nervous as hell.. but i jus wanna see him. i miss that boy. dumb..... but i love him. Everyone has to learn from their mistakes and i guess its time for him too.. I jus cant help but be myself and caring soo much. Especially for someone who has been nothin but supportive for me. Im always goin to be there for my friends... Its jus the person i am. It sucks when things go horribly wrong.. but im not goin to punk out on any of my friends... Thats for sure.
