I have had alot of time to think about the recent events in my life. I have realized that I made alot of bad decissions in my past. None in which were illegal or harmful to others. But things in which I could have done better had I had taken the time to evaluate the situation. Right now my life is so complex. But thanks to someone closest to me, I have managed to deal with the situations at hand or for the most part. There are still some things I am gonna need to take time to think about in depth some more before I make any more decissions on the matter. Have you ever felt you had all you ever wanted and all you ever needed but at the same time felt so terribly alone. Not knowing what step to take next? You see my ex tought me that no matter how much you love someone it is never enough. They will never see exactly what you feel. Trying to explain it always blows up in your face, Trying to show them always makes it worse, If you write it, will they read it? Not normally it gets thrown away or tucked away for years to come. But I have learned something valuable out of everything. Follow your heart where ever it may take you. Don't lose track of reality in doing such, but make sure that you are guarded and don't allow yourself to go on loving someone or love someone that you know will never love you back. And just because someone says it does not mean they meant it. Love to some people is just a line, to make the other happy or to get them to shut the fuck up. But some people say it and mean it just choose your battle field. This song makes me smile
"Would You Go With Me"
Would you go with me if we rolled down streets of fire
Would you hold on to me tighter as the summer sun got higher
If we roll from town to town and never shut it down
Would you go with me if we were lost in fields of clover
Would we walk even closer until the trip was over
And would it be okay if I didn't know the way
If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Let me know if you're really a dream
I love you so, so would you go with me
[Instrumental]
Would you go with me if we rode the clouds together
Could you not look down forever
If you were lighter than a feather
Oh, and if I set you free, would you go with me
If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest man in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you, girl
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Help me tie up the ends of a dream
I gotta know, would you go with me
I love you so, so would you go with me
and this one
"I'll Be"
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath.
And emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth.
Tell me that we belong together,
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above.
[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed.
You're my survival, you're my living proof.
My love is alive -- not dead.
Tell me that we belong together.
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated,
I'll hang from your lips,
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
[Chorus]
And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I've fought my way back from the dead.
I've tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said
[Chorus:]
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your...
I'll be your crying shoulder,
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older,
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
The greatest fan of your life.
...greatest fan of your life.
They make me think and choose my battles
Later
hooah