FallenJester420 Rebel Against Society's blog: "time to face reality"

hang on to it all...trust me somethings you dont wanna let go of....sometimes tho you let go of things you dont want to....to save someone else or to help someone else....what happens when you need to give up yourself and walk away from a life you wish and want more than anything...sometimes yo ucan be the same and feel the same for a very long time till that one thing changes it all....changes the way you think the way you whole mind works....unfortunately its not always a good thing....its not always a safe thing....so when those times come make sure you dont what your doing....if you know you have to hide away do it....even feeling the best about someone....sometimes you just dont deserve getting the good....some will always know the bad...to those just hide....just stay safe...its easier and alot less pain for a lot of people...this is some advice i have to learn again....and some way some how i will....some way i will get back to the mind set of bein safe....the mind set of a dark world that only i will know

alright so no one pays mucch attention to these....its become my own little outlet lol mostly because its my views no one comments no one reads this its my world basically...which brings me to this....its kind of funny we all love in one world of course lol (for all you dimwits who do read this and dont get the idea of metaphor...seriously get a clue) but in reality we all live in our own little worlds....some people got the rainbows and candy cane happyness which i know myself i could never live in...that would make me wanna kill msyelf alone :)....then the darker side of things....to you morons that take it to far i hope you take a long walk off a short bridge....but then the people like me....where there world is chaos....the thoughts that run change minute by minute day by day....where a world is mostly in darkness except the flickering of flames covering the place....now lets talk about what happens when that world gets entered by someone who shouldnt be there....where with her comes light....but sometimes the dark pain you feel for life itself over whelms you because of fear....a battle ensues because your so intrigued and mezmerized you dont know what to do....im gonna say this your world is always going to be there....the blood that is pain all over the dark screams of the torture of life....but alas fight through it you never know what can come for that one thing that lights your path enough to find your way could end up saving you from your own demise...a mind is a fragile thing once broken...fixing is not easy to come by

so i take a look at days...wondering what i know and what others know. we all have questions what is life about or what will tomorrow bring. some tho have more serious question. for instance the people who serve for us..most of the questions i can see them having is this will i be here tomorrow? can i go home tomorrow? when do i get to see my family?..to those people they have the greatest fight in this world they give there lives for people they do not even know for countries they dont even live in. why because they choose to, Now that brings me to now other people and there questions like whatst he point of caring? why even bother? what in the world can ever bring me out of a dark place that has grown on me and made me part of who i am and saved me from the tears and blood shed of heart break. well not a lot of people can answer any of these questions. all i know is this....we live life doing what we can...for some its about popularity and who gets the most attention....for those people you make me fuckin sick...you get much of what some people want from 1 person and 1 person alone...yet some people have to have it from everyone and everybody...what makes you think you think yo udeserve it...because your good looking....havemoney.....pfft give me a break...all i know is one day the people that live in a darkness wishing for that 1 person to show them everything and anything they can to be loved and hoped for to be obesessed over and needed....1 day your day will come and to you that have stayed hidden for too long and dont even know what you can give i understand stay true to what you love if that shadow you have packed life away into is your love now keep it....no one says you have to let go of it but dont hold it to tight that one person may leave never to return and give you your chance when yo ucome out