PrettyHateMachine's blog: "Through the eyes of a butterfly.."

So I went to the doctor today and found out my cervix is 1cm dilated at almost 36wks and also that the baby is definately in a head down position...I've been having the pratice contractions too :D It wont be long now!!!! I'm getting so excited just thought I'd share it with you all!!

Someone says 'sorry,' but is it sincere? And most importantly, are you the person making superficial apologies? Take some time to think about what happened. Don't say something you don't genuinely feel. ^^ I meant what I said last night...every word of it.....kinda funny this popped up after last night too makes ya wonder about these things ....

So this weekend I had my baby shower ..and it was just wow....everyone that was invited came friends from outta town I've known forever but hardly ever see were there....and I got everything I needed except for 9 things which I have started getting on my own :D I can't believe I've only got this month to go (hopefully) lol but ya know it could happen before or after my due date! I'm getting so excited who ever knew shopping for bottles was so much fun lmao ...I may not look at it that way later I suppose but one thing I do know is I'm going to fckin love her to death she is the best day late christmas present ever! :D Other than that just getting ready for the 4th I know it's going to be great got a shitload of fireworks alot of people are going to be there all but one person :( I wish he was there more than any of em but I know he will be here soon so pretty much another happy blog! Oh and those horoscopes are still BS lol ....

"Those Damned Blue-Collar Tweekers" I've seen them out at Soco They're pounding sixteen penny nails The truckers on the interstate Have been known to ride the rails The sweat is beating on the brow Can't keep these fellas down 'Cause those damned blue-collared tweekers Are runnin' this here town I knew a man who hung drywall He hung it mighty quick A trip or two to the blue room Would help him do the trick His foreman would pat him on the back Whenever he would come around 'Cause these dammed blue-collar tweekers Are beloved in this here town Now the union boys are there To protect us from all the corporate type While curious George's drug patrol Is out here hunting snipe Now they try to tell me different But you know I ain't no clown 'Cause those damned blue-collar tweekers Are the backbone of this town Now the flame that burns twice as bright Burns only half as long My eyes are growing weary As I finalize this song So sit back and have a cup o' joe And watch the wheels go round 'Cause those damned blue-collar tweekers Have always run this town

Ok ...don't know about the rest of you but I seriously find most of these cherry tap horoscopes to be complete BS... here's a look ct's for today A creative venture moves to the next level, and so does your love life. All this imagination inspires you to take things to new heights. Isn't it nice how artistic projects and passion seem to go hand-in-hand? Hahaha yeah right ....now here's one from msn... The current aspect may take some of the subtlety out of romance today, especially as the person you have recently become involved with is not only very strong-willed, but also determined to have things go according to their way of thinking. You will need to show that you can be just as determined by discussing how you see things, and making sure they understand your point. Hmmmm the first one BS..the second one...a little more likely lol...

:D I'm so fckin happy right now went to the doc's and measuring perfectly right on the dot :D weight gain was great this time and I am having my baby shower near the end of this month :) Been a good friday gonna hopefully spend sometime with someone special later :) wow for once a HAPPY blog ?!? wtf <3 hope ya all have a great fckin weekend cause I know I will :)

The last few days of my life have been such an emotional rollercoaster...as the end of my pregnancy is near so many emotions are soaring through me ...at first I was excited...but as I realize that I have about two months left now fear has set in...and I honestly can't believe I am actually finding myself scared of the unknown road ahead of me...luckily I have alot people in my life that have kept me calm through all of this and assured me that I will be a great mother...which I am sure of myself but it's just so....surreal at times that she will actually BE HERE in my ARMS in two months!!! I guess I felt like this point would never come ....and now here I am wish me luck in my days to come...this week is the final stretch...(the trimester of hell) lol .... yikes : P Atleast I am going to treat myself this weekend and get my hair done :D don't worry I will take pictures! <3 And I will keep you posted...on Ava's journey here....not much longer to go ...wowww!!