I thought I would take some time and write down some thoughts.. Well when I first got pregnant with my daughter it was hard on me because me & my husband were going through some hard times in our relationship & I wasn't sure if I wanted to be pregnant with his child because I wasn't sure if I wanted to be with him.. I left him and went to Maine when I was 3 months along, started a new relationship with an ex of mine there & I was getting ready to file for a divorce..
Then my husband decides to follow me to Maine & well he wanted to prove to me he could be a better husband and a good father.. So I let him do his proving & he done it.. In about a month and a half, he got two jobs, a car, and an apartment.. So when I was about 8 months pregnant I went back to him, to give him a chance to be a good husband and father to the baby that was on the way.. We had our daughter Serenity on December 16th, 2006 & decided to go back to Arizona when she was 6 weeks old..
Now we have our own place again, have everything in the house that we need, I have my van & he has his catty.. And where we are still getting back to us I didn't want to get pregnant again right away, to be sure this is what I want before expanding our family.. But I still ended up getting prego and just found out last week.. I am happy about the new arrival on it's way, and hoping for a boy.. I just hope everything between us stays good and doesn't go back to the same old bullshit.. But I can see that my husband is a good man & trying really hard to shuffle work, our relationship, and helping with our daughter.. He wanted kids & it took us 5 1/2 years to get pregnant with our daughter, so I think a lot of his problem is he wanted children & he wasn't sure if I could give him any & now that he knows I can he feels more comfortable in our relationship.. Which is kind of shallow on his part, but I do understand because I wanted children just as much as he did.. I just hope everything stays going smooth, and our house stays happy and full of joy.. There has been a lot of changes since the baby was born & there will be more changes after this new one comes, but it will be what we've both dreamed for..
