asoldierswife347's blog: "Thoughts Of An Army Wife"

1. Who is your man? Mike 2. How long have you been together? almost 2 yrs now 3. Dating/Engaged/Married? married 4. How old is your man? 25 5. What's his middle name? Paul ?You or your man?: 1. Who eats more? I do 2. Who said "I love you" first? He did 3. Who weighs more? I do..well I just had a baby what did you expect 4. Who sings better? we both can't sing very well 5. Who's Older? I am 6. Who's smarter? He is lol...I can be ditzy sometimes 7. Who's temper is worse? both of us.... 8. Who does the laundry? me 9. Who does the dishes? Me 10. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? i do 11. Who's feet are bigger? His 12. Who's hair is longer? mine 13. Who's better with the computer? I am 14. Who mowes the lawn? people around the neighborhood come by and offer to do it so they do it 15. Who pays the bills? well he makes the money to pay them but i'm the one that "pays" most of them 16. Who cooks dinner? both of us 17. Who drives when you are together? he does 18. Who pays when you go out to dinner? He does 19. Who's the most stubborn? we are both pretty stubborn 20. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong? me! 21. Who's parents do you see more? neither...we live in different states 22. Who named your dog? I did 23. Who kissed who first? he did 24. Who asked who out? he asked me out 26. Who's more sensitive? I am 27. Who's taller? we are both the same height 28. Who has more friends? he does...im stuck inside with a baby all day so kind of hard to meet people 29. Who has more siblings? he does 30. Who wears the pants in the relationship? haha he says he does but we all know I do...hey i have the pussy so i call the shots lol

Vividly I stare upon a battered face revealed to late to change the upcoming tragedies for the frightening truth is sealed. The smooth image shudders as the pale eyes freeze in time they're hated for thier blindness. Blinking euqivalently with mine in horror...... I look away the broken frame felt similar, how could this tangled mockery within seem so familar? Curious of my own confusion I ask,"Why do you frown?". "Would you rather I counterfeit a smile?" Was replied without a sound although the portraits grief is trapped alone inside only tolerating the obvious. Will the reflection further deny. Sometimes life feels like a play. A twisting story from day to day. The people and the problems, are they real? What about this pain I feel? What is true about man? Are we blessed or are we damned? Do we worry about what really matters? The beliefs we've forgotten, ideas shattered. What about the war and the fighting? Hatred fills hearts like a sky full of lightening Why do we fear the creatures of the night? Morally thier ideas are right. They take just what they need from the land that can't be said about todays man. The blackened souls are full of greed, we try to obtain what we don't really need. The greedy see the poor as having nothing when, in fact, they have everything. This is because what they do have, they cherish, thier beliefs and souls will never perish, what will the next millenium bring? An end, or a beginning? But how much longer could we really last? The things we use are drying up so fast. Peoples thoughts and ideas are impure. They worry me about the future. How are we going to last? Something has to change , and fast. If we change our acts maybe we can delay the inevitable. The mists can lift and a new horizon made visible. Compassion is the key to the portals of our souls. To bring peace are so many peoples' goals. We don't want to see the spill of blood so red. Extinguish the fires of blackness and hatred We have to kill the wrong and ressurect the right. So powerful together we can be, souls unite, we have to do what needs to be done. Let us all come together as one. You are the one that I love. You are the one I'm dreaming of, you don't know how perfect you are. I sit here longing from afar. You are much to good for me. You are out of my reach, You have the most beautiful eyes, they shine like the stars in the nights skies. I'd love to feel your arms around my waist. To feel you close and keep you near to whisper promises in your ear. I can't live without you I'm going insane. I don't know what to do . These feelings are so real. Do you know how I feel? I'm to scared to let you know. What if you like me, what if you don't? Sometimes I wish that you were mine. Please be gentle, my heart is on the line. I think of you all day long. I hear your name in every song. You could do much better then me. You are out of my reach. What if you smash my heart in the dirt? I like you so much that it hurts. My spiraling emotions throw me in hell. I wish you understood how I felt. I wish I could feel your caress. All I wish you is happiness. When I think of you my heart pounds hard. I wonder where and how you are. Are you happy? Are you ok? How re you doing? How was your day? It will only be a matter of time, until the day I lose my mind. If you knew how I felt, would you care? I reach out for your touch, but your not there. But you could do much better than me. You are out of my reach. I wish your arms would hold me tight. I cry myself to sleep at night. I miss you like you were my man. I call you up whenever I can. I think of you all the time. I wish that you were mine. But...you could do much better than me...Your big brown eyes as deep as the sea, you always saw the best in me. Even the most rainy days carried the brilliant sunshine, and I somehow imagined that you'd always be mine. But a turn of events came around and flipped our world upside down. Something changed your point of veiw You are my desire and there is no other. My heart burns with fire no longer my lover. You know I need your love, need you now more and more , set free as a dove. You are the center to my life, my core. You are my desire and there is no other. You mean the world to me. I will forever be yours. Inside of me burns a fire, fire of passion,fire of desire. Life is love and love is here. That's why I hold you so tight, so close my dear. Everyday is fuel to my fire, never burning down, never tires. Maybe one day you'll understand, always together hand in hand. The sun used to shine on me, there used to be a fluffily clouded sky. I knew about soemthing called happy. I always knew just where I wanted to be. That sun is gone, replaced by night. Those clouds now carry low thunder, I only know misery and fright and I don't even recognize me. Somewhere in between something got forgotten and lost the key to my soul was replaced by a lock. I can tell of the deep, dull crevice I have let myself crawl into but no one has asked. If it were wished, I would count the cold tears I've shed but none of it would matter, there would still be the lost happy I don't remember.

Too many words Not enough They speak volumes But not of truth They no longer serve my purpose These heavy droplets of mercury So minute but damaging when dispersed into the air Traveling, unconnected bits Fractions of the whole Poison, Polluting what was intended to be said. Disgusting The innumerous number of victim songs Melodies of the unfairly dejected And I think How many fit me? Reject these Devulge in more interesting past times: Self pity, Mourning the loss of my life. Pathetic. I am not dead , i have lost nothing I am still alive with or without others I stand alone Individual More than a facet of my pod, group, family, clique Not an easy burden to lift But so light, free Without the added weight of others Sustaining myself While giving to others While sustaining myself What joy- to have a surplus to give from what I hold within is so bright And to discover this... Jubilation And to share it with another... Sacred Something to be gaurded well but not rationed To be given in superfluous amounts This I have This I know I stay awake at night , once candle burning Writing , writing Tormented , jumbled words of confusion All leading back to nowhere, all repeating the same pathetic theme And this candle I place my hopes in- I cannot wait for my changes to come to me There is too little time to wait around In the hope that something unknown may occur I want the world, I want the whole world. However unfortunate However true

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. (Hallelujah, thank you Jesus!) Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them. BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT.........

01. On top of the washer ... while it's running. 02. On a soft rug in front of a fireplace. 03. On a secluded island beach. 04. In the backyard under the stars. 05. In the woods after it rains. 06. On a motorcycle. 07. In a public restroom. 08. In an airplane restroom. 09. In a movie theater. 10. On a train in the middle of the night. 11. In bed with silk or satin sheets. 12. In bed with rose petals all over. 13. On the beach at night. 14. In your lover's childhood room while his/her parents are at home. 15. Outside in the rain. 16. In a hot tub. 17. On a yacht during a full moon. 18. Under a rainbow. 19. On a trampoline. 20. On top of a hill. 21. In the middle of nowhere. 22. In the car during heavy (stuck) traffic. 23. In the car on the side of a deserted road. 24. In a hotel. 25. In a state park. 26. On a waterbed. 27. In a barn full of hay. 28. In a field full of wildflowers. 29. On a rooftop. 30. In an open field at night. 31. By a waterfall with the water misting all around you. 32. Under a waterfall. 33. In your partner's bed. 34. In the garage. 35. On a jungle gym at night. 36. Outside during sunset. 37. In the car going through an automated car wash. 38. On your patio, balcony, or deck on a starry night. 39. In the mountains. 40. On an abandoned air field. 41. Under the full moon in wet grass. 42. On a porch swing. 43. In the living room during the day with the windows wide open. 44. On a blanket beside a lake. 45. In an elevator. 46. On the bathroom floor. 47. In your partner's parent's room. 48. In a sauna. 49. In a very big bed. 50. On the top bunk of a bunkbed. 51. In a tent. 52. At your office. 53. On your office desk. 54. On a boat deck with the waves gently rocking you. 55. In a tree house. 56. In a department store restroom. 57. In the restroom at a restaurant. 58. In a hot air balloon. 59. In a room filled with lit candles. 60. In a bathtub. 61. In the shower. 62. In a cave. 63. In a canoe on a river. 64. On a baseball diamond at night. 65. In a swimming pool. 66. Next to a Christmas tree. 67. At the bottom of a canyon. 68. On a deserted island. 69. In a beach house with a light breeze gusting outside. 70. Off a beaten trail in the woods. 71. In every room of your house. 72. On a chair. 73. On an air mattress. 74. On your kitchen table. 75. In a screened-in porch in the middle of a thunderstorm. 76. On a hotel balcony, covered with a fuzzy blanket. 77. In a sleeping bag under the stars. 78. On a paddle boat on a lake. 79. In the bed of a truck on a hot summer night. 80. In the ocean ... ride the waves! 81. In a room filled with balloons. 82. In front of a video camera. 83. In an abandoned barn on the hay wearing nothing but cowboy boots and a hat. 84. On an old sheet with chocolate body frosting. 85. On a bed surrounded by pillows. 86. At a bed and breakfast. 87. On an amusement park ride ... perhaps Tunnel of Love, in the dark? 88. In the back of a limo. 89. Next to a campfire. 90. On a golf course. 91. In the car at a drive-in movie. 92. On really plush carpeting. 93. In your house during a thunderstorm, with a window open, and rain misting in. 94. On a picnic table (with or without tablecloth). 95. In a hammock. 96. While scuba-diving. 97. On horseback. 98. At a rest stop area. 99. In a corn field (or anywhere else in the garden).

What girls really want from you. 1. Don't flirt with other girls. | It makes us feel like we're not good enough for you. We feel like we did something wrong so you are making up for it with another girl. 2. Even if you're not going out, heck, even if you're not friends, don't say bad stuff about us. | We could be the meanest people in the world to you, but most of the time we're joking and we think you're serious. You haven't seen mean until you say something bad about us. We have evil sides and we're not afraid to use them. 3. We're not toys. | Don't just have your fun with us and drop us. We're serious about things. That's just mean and we'll spend days wondering what we ever did wrong. 4. Put your arms around our waist firmly but gently, holding us close to you. | If you can, smell our hair! For most girls, we try to succeed in making it smell and look good! Plus, we know you love the smell, why try to sneak around? 5. If you've done something wrong, fess up. | Tell us before we have to ask you about it. Trust me, when we ask, we'll be twice as angry, and that's just if you tell the truth. We know. We don't guess when we confront you. We have our connections, and we know what's going on. Lie to us and you can pretty much send your death wish. 6. When we say we love you, we mean it. | We're not willing to tell just anyone that. Our hearts are gentle and it's very hard to trust guys, and it takes time. Don't worry if you tell us you love us and we don't say it back right away. We do, we're just thinking about how sweet it was that you said it first. And if it takes a day or two, we're not deciding. We're figuring out how we can prove it. 7. If we have guy friends, we love how you hold us close when we talk to them. | We think it's cute when you get all jealous, but don't overdo it. We're not dumb, we're not gonna mess around. We're not flirting, so don't blame us later. Now, if some guy friend of our's is flirting with us, then you have every right to overreact and kick his ass. 8. Anything you'd want us to know about you... know about us, too. We'll memorize every fact. | We'll have our friends quiz us on how many homeruns you had in a season, what your favorite color is... But it's gonna hurt if we know so much about us and all you can say is, "Uhh..." and make a guess. 9. If our eyes are shiny, we're either really happy or we're about to cry. | Look at our smile and the way our face is. Is it the same way it is when you make us laugh? If not, we're going to cry. At that point, if you can tell, turn us so that we're facing you and wrap your arms around us tight so that we feel like nothing could harm us at all while we're there, and stroke our hair. When we cry, often we will bury our heads in your shoulder. If we don't, wipe away our tears. Whisper gently in our ear. Tell us it's okay, even if you don't know what we're crying about. 10. Know that we like it when you tickle us. | It makes us laugh and reminds us that you know that exact spot that makes us cry we're laughing so hard. It's cute. 11. Surprise us. | Call before you're at the door, make sure you have good timing. Tell us to look out the window, or open the door. We'll see you and hang up and run to your side. Bring flowers for now reason. Give us candy when we're down, that always works! Show up just to kiss us and see us smile. 12. Show us how much you love us. | That doesn't mean show us how bad you want to have sex. We're not walking beds. (So, in other words, we're not just easy lays walking around.) We love it when you whisper in our ear, or breath on our neck. We like it when you kiss under our jaw down our neck, resting your head on our shoulder. We feel like we're repaying you for every time we rest on you. 13. We love to look at the stars.| Plan a night to surprise us and don't tell us where you're taking us no matter how much we may beg. Take a picnic dinner, candles, a lighter, plastic glasses and sparkling cider. Don't forget to bring lots and lots of coffee for us! We love that stuff. Bring 3 blankets. One for the ground when we lay on top of you in your arms, one for over the top of both of you, and another that you sneak on top of her during the night, just in case she gets cold. Hold us close and let us look up at the stars in your arms. If we fall asleep, don't wake us up. Stay the night with us right there, and let us use you for a pillow. Get comfortable, but try your hardest not to disturb our sleep, because if we open our eyes we'll tell you to take us home. 14. If your friends think it's cool to have sex, it doesn't mean we do. | We have plans for our lives, usually. And if not, we're still not ready to handle that kind of pressure. Being in a relationship is a lot of responsibility itself, and having sex just means you have to be more committed. Wait until we're ready. If you pressure us, we're going to get mad and we might not ever have sex with you. (Another way to put it: We'll dump you, no matter how much it hurts.) 15. Sing to us in the quiet. | Even if you're horrible. Especially if you're good. We love to hear you. If you're bad at it, it just shows that you would show us anything, even if it's not the most pleasurable thing you would choose to do. It shows us you're open with us and are willing to do whatever we want. In the quiet it comforts us and reminds us you're there, and it really turns us on, and you're likely to get a kiss. 16. Dance with us. | With or without music. Even in the funniest of places. If we announce we love the song, that's your big hint that we want you to ask us to dance. And even if we don't say that, offer anyways. The worst thing we could do is say no. 17. Don't embarrass us. | If you act immature in front of us, we will scold you like your mother would. We'll chew you out and rip you a new one, telling you exactly how much we never want to be seen with you. If, in fact, you do embarrass us publicly, after we're completely through chewing you out, say you're sorry. Tell us you didn't mean to embarrass us and ask for our forgiveness. Then, once we sigh, put your hands on our shoulders and let them slide to rest on our hips. DON'T try to kiss us. Wait for us to be ready. Who knows how long we'll be angry. 18. Meet our parents right off the bat. | We love it when you include our family. If you get the chance, refuse to go out with us until you meet our parents. Figure out a day when you can come home with us and have dinner with the rents... Be Mr. Polite to the parents. Shake hands with her dad firmly and cooly. Shake her mother's hand first and be gentle. Do remember, she's cooking your food. Smile at them and smile at her afterward. If she has siblings, be Mr. Perfect. They'll love you if you tell them something they don't know. And if you show them how to do something, they'll love you forever. Keep in mind that they look up to her, so if you play your cards right, they'll look up to you, too. If they're older, they're sure to be protective. They might not appear it at first, but they care deeply who their younger sister is with. If it's a brother, be nice and polite and show him without action exactly how much you want to care for her. Prove to her whole family why you should be with her. Ask her dad. Make sure it's alright with him. Then, when you get the okay, kiss her hand and ask her to a date you've previously planned in front of everyone. 19. Pay for her. | She'd offer to pay for half and even all of it. Don't let her. Call it your treat. Even if you pay every time, it means that we have more money to spend on those little gifts we love to get you. Like those photo albums we love to decorate and put pictures of the two of you together. Those do cost money. And the cologne we get you for Christmas or your birthday? Yah, that's real stuff right there. It ain't cheap! 20. Last, but not least and the most important of all, love her. | With all of your heart, love her. Love her like there's no one else out there for you, because as far as you know, there isn't. Don't doubt our unconditional love for you. Kiss us like you've never kissed before. Hold us like no one could fit more perfectly in your arms. Love us like no one could fill that hold that we do any better. Look past the flaws that we constantly point out and even reject them. When we say we look fat or ugly, reject it instantly and remind us how beautiful we are. Point out something about us you love. Think about her before anyone else.

Marriage (Part I) Typical macho man marries typical good-looking woman and after the wedding, he laid down the following rules: "I'll be home when I want, if I want and at what time I want and I don't expect any hassle from you. I expect a great dinner to be on table unless I tell you that I won't be home for dinner. I'll go hunting, fishing, boozing and card-playing when I want with my old buddies and don't you give me a hard time about it. Those are my rules! Any comments?" His new bride says, "No, that's fine with me. Just understand that there will be sex here at seven o'clock every night whether you're here or not." (SHE'S GOOD!) ************************************ Marriage (Part II) Husband and wife have a bitter quarrel on the day of their 40th wedding anniversary! The husband yells, "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads: "Here Lies My Wife - Cold As Ever " "Yeah?" she replies. "When you die, I'm getting you a headstone that reads: "Here Lies My Husband Stiff At Last" (HE ASKED FOR IT!) ****************************** Marriage (Part III) Husband (a doctor) and his wife are having a fight at the breakfast table. Husband gets up in a rage and says, "You're no good in bed either!" and storms out of the house. After sometime, he realizes he was nasty and decides to make amends and rings her up. She comes to the phone after many rings, and the irritated husband says, "What took you so long to answer the phone?" She says, "I was in bed." "In bed this early, doing what?" She says, "Getting a second opinion!" (YEP, HE HAD THAT ONE COMING, TOO!) ****************************************** Marriage (Part IV) A man has six children and is very proud of his ach ievements. He is so proud of himself, that he starts calling his wife, "Mother of Six" in spite of her objections. One night, they go to a party. The man decides that it's time to go home and wants to find out if his wife is ready to leave as well. He shouts at the top of his voice, "Shall we go home 'Mother of Six?' His wife, irritated by her husband's lack of discretion , shouts right back, "Anytime you're ready, Father of Four." (DITTO!) ************************************** Marriage (Part V) The Silent Treatment A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning bus iness flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece. SEND THIS TO SMART WOMEN WHO NEED A LAUGH........ AND TO MEN YOU THINK CAN HANDLE IT.